>In spite of not sleeping well because of leg pain and restless legs acting up, I was up at 9am. but the best part is that I ate well all day. Started with coffee, then oatmeal. Lunch was a Kashi frozen lasagna-type thing, then I had fage with a bit of maple syrup for snack, scrambled eggs with cheese for dinner, and now I’m having some whole grain toast. Oh, and I had a root beer float after lunch. I don’t usually eat this much in a day, but what I do eat is not as healthy, so I am pleased.

Tonight I watched ‘Live Free or Die Hard’, an impossible-to-believe movie in which any normal person would have been dead after the first half hour, but hey, it’s Bruce. I only watched it cause it has Justin Long, who I like. He used to be on Ed, and I remember thinking he was going to be a big deal. He held his own with Mr. Willis, I thought. He was great in ‘Galaxy Quest’, too, even though his role wasn’t that big. I love that movie and watch whenever it’s on. Even with commercials.

Tomorrow is tech support day. I’m going to my friend Tess’s house to work on her pc. That will be fun. We do tend to get hysterical with laughter a lot.

Hoping for a good night with actual sleeping going on. I’ll let you know.

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A few trees are beginning to turn, the weather has gotten much nicer….cooler and less humid. I am feeling much better, too. Every day without sugar-free ice cream has me feeling better than the day before. Very interesting. The picture is the John Greenleaf Whittier house near Haverhill, MASS. It’s by J. Woodhull Adams. I’ve been by the actual house hundreds of times, since it wasn’t that far from where I lived in New Hampshire. It really does look just like that. The main road goes up on the near side of the house, and there is a smaller road that goes by the front.

I just found out I lost another homemaker, due to agency not providing her enough hours. Her sister is taking over for her. This is one of the most difficult parts of being ill, the constant changing of the homemaker. Some are great, some okay, some not so good, and it’s the good ones who seem to last the shortest amount of time. It’s a crap job anyway, doing other people’s laundry, cleaning other people’s bathrooms, grocery shopping which is not fun even when you’re doing it for your own family. They really aren’t paid very well, either, so it’s amazing anyone even chooses the job in the first place. I think it’s a ‘not enough skills or education for a better job’ kind of thing. But it would be nice to have the same person, if she’s a good cleaner, all the time. Starting over with someone new is hard, especially because of the nature of what they do for me. “Here’s my dirty laundry, new person. Deal with it.” I really hate that. You know how they say, “Be careful what you wish for?” I always wished someone else would clean the toilet, my least favorite job. Well, now someone does, but I am in pain and too fatigued to function and my brain doesn’t work well and my life has gotten more and more insulated and my world has shrunken…….but someone else cleans the toilet. A fair trade-off? I don’t think so. So that wishing thing is really a catch-22 kind of deal. A dirty trick the cosmos plays on you. Oh, well.

>I was able to get out with a friend and do a bit of shopping and browsing, had a coolatta and played Big Kahuna on here. I can tell I will not be able to do more than hobble once I have been still for awhile, but having fun is so worth it. Pain and fatigue as a result of doing something fun is so much easier to deal with than pain and fatigue that just happen for no known reason. I know what I’ve done to cause the former, and was willing to make the trade-off. It makes a difference. It is very cool and spit rain off and on, and the air is really, really damp.

We went to Walmart, which is in the process of building more in order to become a super Walmart with groceries and all. It was awful. Why would you choose to walk what seems like miles from one end of a store to the other just to find the few things you might need. It is stale recirculated air, too. Very unpleasant to be in. I am not one who thinks bigger is necessarily better, or that one-stop shopping is a good thing. Friend and I agreed that we will go only when we have something specific to get. No more browsing for the fun of it. Huge, cavernous stores are not really all that appealing.