>I’m not making any. Getting through life one day at a time is working quite well. So no, “I’m doing this next year”, or “I’m changing this”. I’m just being. In the snow. Well, the snow is outside, and I am inside, but it’s snowing and I love snow. When I say it’s snowing, I mean it is coming down like gangbusters. Like this:

only moreso.

I am having issues with my modem the past few days. Whenever the phone rings, the modem glitches and I start losing my phone and internet connections. Tv still works fine, however, which is only to be expected, since there’s nothing on tv I want to watch. I have to keep rebooting the modem with a pin. “There’s always something” Gilda Radner.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy new year, and that 2009 is the best year ever until 2010 and beyond, all of which will be even better. It’s snowing.

>Happy Christmas

>It was a good day. We had a nice dinner of prime rib, broccoli with hollandaise, and popovers. Canolis for dessert. I had a lovely chat with my friend Peter, who lives in Colorado. After dinner we played Trivial Pursuit and watched It’s a Wonderful Life. All in all, a happy Christmas day. Hope everyone else had a happy day as well.

>Merry Christmas

I was right about the snow. It’s almost completely gone. It’s a beautiful, sunny but cold day. I’m getting ready to go to my friend’s house. I made shortbread to take with me. I know it’s silly, but I’m feeling a twinge of guilt at leaving Gertrude alone on Christmas. She doesn’t know it’s Christmas, so what’s that about? I need to get out more. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. Merry Christmas!


>My confidence in a white Christmas may have been premature. It has warmed up considerably and is raining the snow away. There may be none left tomorrow. I’m sure this makes the street crews happy. They were out very late last night clearing off snow from the downtown area streets. We have a good highway department here. All of our services are great, in fact. Fire, police, downtown association. They keep the downtown nice and appealing with lots to do during the year. Small towns can be great, although not all of them I’ve lived in have been as great as this one.

I am watching an On Demand video of snow falling on pines with Christmas music in the background. Very nice. Hope all of my (one? two?) readers have a wonderful holiday, and a healthy new year.

>Snow (More)

>It snowed a lot more today. Guess it really is winter. It’s only a few days til Christmas, so we’ll be having a white one this year for certain. Doesn’t feel very Christmas-y, probably since I’ve done nothing at all about it this year. No decorations, no tree, no cards, no presents. Nothing. Up until the last few days I was just too tired and draggy, and then it seemed to late to do anything anyway. It’s depressing. I’ve been getting flashbacks of Christmases when the kids were little, and it kind of makes me sad. I like living alone, but sometimes it would be really great to have family around. Something to look forward to, something to hope for, something to plan for. I’m tired tonight, and I think it makes me kind of maudlin. I had a pretty good day. I figured out that Friday I had, in addition to my morning coffee, three extra strength Excedrins, so I overdosed on caffeine. No wonder I didn’t sleep well. No wonder I’ve been having problems. I had been taking 2 excedrin every night when I went to bed. I’ve switched to Ibuprofen, but have to be careful with that or it does a number on my stomach. Of course, I don’t sleep at all well if I don’t take any pain pills, so it’s a catch-22 kind of thing. Anyway, the snow is pretty.

>Snow (still)

>It’s been snowing now for 24 hours. Very pretty. It’s piled up a bit on the ledges outside my windows. I think we’ve gotten about 8 or 9 inches so far. It’s only 19 degrees, too. I love winter.

After a really good day yesterday, I did not sleep very well and woke up with a sinus headache. So I am dragging today. But that’s okay. I had a good week and I loved it. Going to make some cheese balls for the freezer later, and someone posted a good pork loin crockpot recipe I am going to try in the next few days. I don’t use my crockpot enough. Hoping there is something on tv that’s watchable this afternoon, even old Lifetime Christmas movies I’ve seen would be better than all the reality drek and infomercials that seem to glut the digital…….what’s digital? Regular tv you can say ‘the airwaves’, but digital? Oh, well.


>It started snowing at 2pm and has been coming down like crazy ever since. Very pretty. I don’t have to be out in it, so I am loving it. Had another good day. Up at 8:45. Got organized for the homemaker including making the shopping list. Got some extra things because next week we are supposed to get another storm, and it’s good to be prepared in case she can’t come. I’ve been keeping up with the dishes by hand, and gotten some more neatening/organizing done. I’d love this all to last, but if it doesn’t, I’m enjoying it while it’s here. It’s almost strange to feel relatively normal. It’s been such a long time since I’ve had days this good. Looking forward to Christmas, even though I have done nothing in preparation. No decorations or tree, didn’t send a card or buy a present or anything. It’s kind of late now, so I choose not to worry about it. Hey, I have a chronic, debilitating illness, right? LOL

>Another good day

>I went to bed at 9pm last night and zonked right out. No excedrin, just ibuprofen so no caffeine. Woke up at 7am feeling great. It’s 3pm now and I feel like I’ve been up for years, but I’ve gotten a lot done. For once. For me. I took all the food out of the cupboards and put it on the counter. Put some kitchen items on those shelves to make more room. I figure if I can see the food, I will eat it. I have a big ‘out of sight, out of mind’ problem since I got sick. I also cleaned out under the sink, which really needed it badly. Got it organized nicely with my tools, plant pots, light bulbs and such. And there’s still a lot of day left. I’m going to watch The Mentalist and Eli Stone on line, since I could not stay awake for them last night. Less commercials on line, too, which is always a good thing. It’s a cold, gray day today, but it’s nice in here. And neater. *smile* It feels really good to feel good. It’s been a while, and I missed it. Achy a bit, but otherwise nearly ‘normal’.

>Sleep Experiment

>I’ve been having some problems with either not sleeping or not staying awake. So I decided to take a week for an experiment. It’s day four. I quit all my meds except Excedrin and asthma inhaler. No knock-you-out pills. I actually am feeling much better. More alert. The sleep schedule is interesting, too. The first day or so, I slept a few hours here and there. Night before last I went to bed at 5pm and got up at 1:30 am. Crashed at 8pm last night, and woke up at 3:45 this morning. It’s 5:30 now. I’m up, dressed, had my coffee. Feeling good. I did get a pain flare yesterday afternoon, but was better after my friend Tess felt well enough to come over for some Big Kahuna. We always get hysterical playing that, because it makes up it’s own words, which are sometimes pretty funny, and most often nonsensical. But they get us points and laughter. I guess laughter really is the best medicine. I’m feeling some pain this morning, so I will take some Excedrin, but overall, I think this experiment is working pretty well. I even cooked yesterday.

>Oh, I figured it out!

>If I use Blogger dashboard, no link for pictures, if I go through my blog, link. Hmmmm.

So far today (today started at 1:30 am) I have had a lovely bath, spent some time trying to untangle my hair which never gets tangled but is severely tangled today, made simple syrup, made pesto with my home-grown basil and parsley, and messed about on the computer for way, way too long. I was hoping to go out, but friend Tess is not feeling well. If I get really enthusiastic, I may go to the post office. It is a lovely and warm day. Almost 60 degrees. Love it!

I am listening to that Christmas music from my previous post. I got that link from Projo Subterranean Homepage News, a blog in the Providence Journal, Projo.com. Old-fashioned music, but interesting.

>My Sunday

>The dratted picture-adding link has disappeared again. Why is that? Anyway, my new list has 21 items, and I managed to do 11 of them, and will do two more before bed: clean the kitchen, and take meds, get ready for bed. Yes, my list is detailed, that way I get to mark off a lot, even if I’m not managing well. For instance, from stretching before I get out of bed to being fully dressed, hair combed, and curtains opened there are four more items. Hey, I’m not in ‘flying with fibro’ for nothing, folks. LOL So even though I was really tired today, and my arm is having some serious hurting from the bursitis, I still feel like I accomplished quite a bit for me. Some days, actually getting out of bed is my only accomplishment. And getting back in. It’s still cold and now it’s windy, but stopped snowing around noon, I think. Tomorrow it’s supposed to get up to 48. I love New England. Later

>Been Awhile

I didn’t realize. It’s snowing today. Snow. I like snow. Not been managing well lately. Had a sinus infection and am having bursitis in my right shoulder. Two years ago I had it in the left. Why????? But I am on some serious antibiotics and feeling much better. Not the bursitis, but the infection. *smile*

I have determined to get my house at least a bit better organized, and except for the sleep-all-day days, have been getting a little done here and there. Finally. Also made a new schedule and I am going to stick to it. I built in lots of rest periods, and nothing too strenuous. Going to stick to Flylady’s 15 minutes at a time, only I’m going do to 15 minutes a day. Worked it all out. The problem with schedules and plans is that along comes the night I can’t sleep, or the day I can’t stay awake, and the whole thing goes out the window. I am really going to try to stick to it this time, and just start again after one of those days.

I am soooooo sick of being sick. When I saw the doctor for the sinus thing, I also made an appointment to just talk about my diagnosis and treatments. I am willing to start from scratch. I really like the new doctor. He listens and offers info like Dr. Ammerman did, not just treat-and-go like Dr. Rusu. I still miss Dr. Ammerman, but this new guy is great too. So I am hopeful.

This illness makes it really hard to have any sort of regularity to daily life, and I do tend to get discouraged and just quit caring sometimes, but I can still rebound, thank goodness. Mentally, if not physically. I get depressed, and then I can eventually find something to be hopeful about. I do have fun every day, too, even if it’s only LOLcats. I like LOLcats. That’s it for now.