Pain is NOT your friend

Well, it’s not mine, anyway.  Spent all of yesterday in the hospital.  Chest started to hurt really bad around 5:30 am.  Felt like a muscle spasm or something.  By 8, I really couldn’t do more than shallow breaths because it HURT, oh man, did it hurt.  Called my friend Tess and she drove me to the ER.  Tests, tests, more tests.  EKG, cat scan, loads of lab work.  Nitroglycerine.  Meanwhile, it was hours before they gave me pain meds.  Also, the potassium was very low again, so had two separate infusions of that, plus oral pills.  Morphine.  Did nothing.  Morphine!  I thought morphine was one of the ‘good’ drugs.  Apparently not.    Over the course of the day, they ruled out pulmonary embolism, heart attack, and finally decided it is pleurisy, which is an inflammation of the chest muscles.  Finally gave me some Vicodin, which kicked in after about two hours, and made the pain at least bearable.  What causes pleurisy?  Possibly a virus, although I haven’t been sick at all.  I wound up with about a dozen stick-on things for the ekg, etc.

So we go to the drugstore and get the vicodin scrip filled, and stopped off for some Chinese food to go so I would have something I could just eat.  Tess made sure I had pills, water, phones, remotes, etc. before she went home.  Fell asleep on the couch, propped up on pillows.  Cannot lie down with pleurisy, apparently.  The cat scan was NOT fun, but fortunately did not take long.  Took more vicodin at 11 pm and really wanted to go to bed, which was interesting.  Trying to find a way to semi lie down and still be able to breathe.  Finally did, zonked out, and just woke up about 20 minutes ago.  Pain, pain, pain.  I did pretty well, I can be pretty stoic, but the potassium iv really made my arm hurt, and the two different pain sources almost did me in.  I was starting to lose it, but they adjusted the flow and added some fluid, and the arm didn’t hurt as much.

Everyone at our local hospital is really nice and caring, and I was lucky to get a very good ER doctor, who explained everything, and did what he could for the pain.  I am, however, getting to familiar with the hospital.  After only ever being in the hospital when I had my kids, and once for a few hours when I had biopsies when I first got sick with fibro and they thought it was something else, I have, in the past few years, been there three times.  Only once overnight, when it turned out there wasn’t actually anything wrong that they could find, then one morning for the non-surgery, and yesterday.  I can have fun any where, apparently, and did all three times, even yesterday with all the pain.


Er doctor could not reach my primary care doctor to discuss the potassium situation, for which I am already on supplements.  Soon as I can breathe reasonable well, (soon, please) I am calling a new doctor.  Seriously.  When the ER doctor calls you numerous times about your patient and you don’t bother to call him back, something is wrong somewhere.  This is about the fifth time there have been communication issues with my doctor, so it is time for a change.  And that’s the saga of the really bad, horrific, miserable pain day, which has now carried over to today.


Yes,  I am up.  Here, for your edification, is my sleep schedule for the past 30 or so hours:


Tuesday night: in bed by nine, asleep by 10 pm.  Up at 5 am Wednesday.  Back to sleep 9am. Up at 7pm. Back to sleep (on couch) 11:30 pm, up 2:30 am Thursday. It’s just about 5 am now.  Still awake, so far.


That works out to about 20 hours asleep and ten hours awake.  Seriously, who needs that much sleep, and why?  I can also just stay awake for days at a time.  ?????????

The fun is added to by the pain.  My foot hurts, my leg hurts, my side hurts, my shoulders hurt.  Walking hurts.  My neck hurts.  Oh, hell.  Everything hurts.  That’s about the size of it.  Being ill: not for the faint-hearted. Giving in, giving up, are not on.  I will not cave.  I will prevail.  I will enjoy my life regardless.  So there.



Feeling Better

Well, not a store, but  been reading.  Four books by Lisa Lutz.  About the Spellmans.  Very funny books, loaned to me by my homemaker.  Next one up is ‘Attack By The Elfmen’ or something like that.  Don’t know who it’s by.  She hadn’t quite finished it yet, so next week.  I love my Kindle, but real books are always lovely.  Slept well, not as much pain so far.  Hoping to do a bit of cooking today.  A recipe from, my fav food blog, Closet CookingThat’s it for now.

Well, hello there.

I have been absent for a while, I know. It’s been a difficult non-winter. Ever since the non-surgery, really. I’ve been struggling with pain, which leads to isolation, which leads to depression, which leads to ‘can’t think of one thing to say when I look at my blog’. So absent it was. I was. I think I am getting better, but I could be just having a better day (night). My sleep schedule is so screwed up it’s not even in the realm of controllable. I haven’t been out of the house in about three weeks. I did go downstairs and get my mail once. My life is soooo interesting.

Then there is the political climate in my country.  I find it very disturbing, and feel hopeless as far as doing anything about it.  Hate, prejudice, blame-the-victim, all seem to be running rampant in the discourse.  This is NOT a good sign.  No.  No it isn’t.  It is quite scary, when you think about it.  All the progress that’s been made in recent decades is teetering on the brink of being lost.  It makes me sad.

Okay, I guess I’m not actually any better, but if I have any readers left, I’m still here. Just having a hard time lately. Send me something cheerful in the comments. I need it. Thanks.