>Had a pretty good day yesterday. Got some tidying up done Thursday, and then yesterday my friend Tess came over and we went to Joanne’s. I got some more yarn, and I actually started to crochet something. Not sure what it’s going to be yet, but it’s good to be making something again. I’ve been wanting to for quite some time, but just hadn’t gotten it together enough to get started. I also got some gimp. I know, gimp is so junior high, but I saw a pbs show the other day where they were using it, then in Joanne’s there was a package with some cool colors, so I got it. LOL Regression, it’s a good thing.

Last night, my friend Beth came over and brought Chinese food. We had a nice meal and a nicer chat. She is having kind of a hard time lately, and has isolated herself, which I know all about, believe me. So I offered to be her cheering-up connection, and promised to call her. And I will. I miss her in my life. She doesn’t live too far away, but her life is soooo busy, and the isolating thing just cuts her off from her friends. So I can be a good thing. It’s good to not always be the needy one.

Before she came over, I had started with some pain, which only got worse, and by the time I went to bed, I was having some serious pain. I spent most of today in bed, trying to sleep through it, and feel somewhat better now. I’m glad it didn’t turn into a full-blown flare. I want to enjoy my life, and pain kind of gets in the way when it’s really bad.

It is still lovely, lovely weather. Still grey and rainy and mild, windows open for a few days and nights now. I like this kind of weather. My Aerogarden is doing very well, and will need some cutting back pretty soon. It’s nice to have some fresh green things growing. I do like herbs, so I’m looking forward to using them soon.

My shoulder is hurting quite a bit still, and typing seems to make it worse, so I am done for now. Happy life, everyone.

>Now that I changed my blog’s look, I can’t figure out how to change it back.
Also, I am feeling a bit peeved. I do read another blog by someone with a chronic, debilitating illness and someone else commented negatively on it. Everyone is different. Illness does not affect everyone exactly the same way. Some people can function better, some not so much. Those of us who do function better do not need to be judgmental of those of us who do not. We would all be working and getting on in life if we were able. No one chooses to struggle, it just happens. I’d go back and do my job in an instant if I was able. I’d cook every day, and do my own vacuuming and laundry and shopping if I could. It’s no fun having strangers come into your home and wash your undies and clean your toilet. It’s not easy to shop second hand. I am a visual person, and I can eat very well if I can see what’s in the store and be reminded of it. Making lists is another story. I can never think of what to eat. I’d be the other me so fast it would make your head swim if I could. But I can’t. Apparently I never will, either. This isn’t something that goes away. It’s not fatal, but boy it sure does change your life forever. It’s painful, and exhausting, and frustrating, and sad, and difficult, and isolating. So you can still work. Well more power to you. But don’t judge those of us who can’t. It is hard enough without being judged for things over which you have little or no control. So just shut up, Martha.