Spending some time there today. Found this.

https://www.teenvogue.com/story/how-to-film-police-safely

This is America. We are not supposed to need this. Please vote them out. Vote them all out. Every single cretinaceous one of them. Unless you think Nazi Germany was a good thing, in which case just go crawl back under whatever slimy rock you crawled out from.

Oh, people, it’s been up, it’s been down, it’s been sitting here every day staring at the world out there. Gorgeous weather than I am not out in. Hate to turn around and look into the apartment, which is kind of in a state of black tornado havoc. Real life is hard. Been alone to long. The signs are there. Mare’s tails, right? Window streaks are because the seal has broken. The other window is much worse. Much worse.

But today, after spending the morning making up a grocery list for delivery, I closed it out without ordering and took a nap. This afternoon I cleaned the kitchen, meaning loaded dishwasher and washed down the stove and cabinets and moved a couple things to better places. Small kitchen, not a lot of places to put things. I am going to make four-bean salad and bake a cake when I’m done here. I hope. It’s only 7:30 pm, still pretty light out, I can pretend it’s daytime, right? Besides I don’t usually get to sleep til 2 or 3 am, so might as well use this time to accomplish something.

Do I dare show pictures of the half of the living room that is a mess. The side with the tv/fireplace/Gertrude’s rocking chair is quite neat. LOL Hmmmm. What does that say?

Trust me, it’s not always this bad. Boxes from deliveries over the past two months that I did not have enough energy to break down. Things on table are from trying to find a place for some things and so far failed. You’ll notice the large expanse of bare wall where there used to be a calendar and a decorative mirror. Gertrude prefers this style of decorating, apparently, since she ripped most thing right off the wall. I move the mirror because she kept trying to make it swing. The fan and clock are pretty much all she left, only because she could not reach them. She just plays with the things next to the pass-through. She is soooo cute. LOL Stay safe, everybody. Just because they say you can mingle, does not mean you should.

It’s going well.  And it’s not going well.  Watching Imagine Dragons live on youtube.  Yes!  Keeping up with dishes and hand laundry, playing with Miss G here and there.  Getting by okay.  But…..I have things I want to do, things I need to do, I made a plan for keeping up with the cleaning and tidying.  So far I’ve done none of it.  Start out well, then with my morning coffee, I fire up the old piece of crappity crap carp laptop, and that’s pretty much it for most of the day.  I have a lot of back pain, which is a deterrent to doing things, but I think I also am just avoiding life, pain, being alone, never going out, etc.  I have been here before, I remember.  Before I had a friend nearby, before I had people coming in to do those things I can’t really do very well, before I was able to go out and have some fun with my friend now and then.  I don’t like this, but I am just kind of going with the flow.  One thing I’ve have learned since getting fibro is that it is completely non-productive to beat myself up over things I pretty much have no control over.  Listen to your body, go with the flow, do what you can, when you can.  Hopefully, things will get better, I will get a grip, my back will miraculously heal and my fibromyalgia will just stop.  Yep. That’s going to happen.  🙂

One of my efriends sent me an email a couple of days ago that they were having really bad storms and tornadoes where he is.  Nothing since.  Don’t know if he’s okay, or if his dish blew off his roof, or what.  Sometimes shit happens. I’ve had a couple of efriends who just vanished, and you never know what happened to them.  Some blogs, too, where the person just suddenly stops posting and never posts again.  Leaves you wondering for a long, long time. What happened to them?  Are they okay?  And you never find out.

Still with the laptop issues.  My ipad works fine, so does my android phone, so it’s not Verizon this time, I think.  Have been using Edge because Firefox is just not working at all well, and trying it today again because why do other browsers not have a ‘save as text’ option, among other things? And the tabs keep crashing.  And crashing.  Looked it up and tried the solution, safe mode with no extensions.  Yeah, that worked.  Not.  I love my Firefox and have used it ever since I got a computer.  I try every new browser that comes along, but always go back because it has the extensions and perks I use all the time.  So why isn’t it working right? Ever since they started the every five minute update schedule, it has just gotten more and more broken.  Is it just me?  Is it like this for everyone?  Frustrated.

Oh, I do love Imagine Dragons.  Radioactive was my first, then Thunder, On Top of the World, which they just now sang live, and more and more and more.  Oh, Believer is up.  Later.  🙂

Is a bit cold.  61 degrees and very windy yet again.  It has been windy every day for over a week or more.  Sky is beautiful with fewer pollutants dirtying it up, beautiful sort of peachy clouds at sunrise today.  I have north-facing windows only where I am.  Two in the living room, where my laptop desk is so I can see out while spending time on line, and two in the bedroom.  One bedroom window is open several inches and I can feel the wind blowing on my back.  In the other room, around the corner.  I drew this on google docs.  Who knew you could even do that?  I didn’t.  The left says ‘me’ and the right says ‘bedroom windows, and where the opening in the line is the wall going straight down.  Hey, I’m new at this drawing on docs thing.  I just thought it is completely bizarre that the wind coming in the bedroom window is blowing onto my back around the corner.  Two corners, actually.  Weird, weird, weird.  Yes, I have a lot of time on my hands here, people.  Happy Isolation.  🙂

is a Republican.  I was not happy when he got in, but would you believe it, he has turned out to be one of the good guys, for the most part.  Here is his latest on opening things up.  Compare this to other states that are opening hairdressers and barbershops first, because we all know you will die from lack of a hair stylist as much as from the virus.  Right?  Anyway, here it is. Good read.

Opening Massachusetts

https://www.erinbromage.com/post/the-risks-know-them-avoid-them

One of my youngest daughter’s high school friends has died from the virus.  First person in my extended circle that I am aware of.  They have not been in touch for a long time, but she was a friend back then, and it is very, very sad.

I read a blog where someone said sixteen people in their extended circle have died from the corona virus.

Stay safe. Stay home.  Wear a mask.  Save the lives of your loved ones.  Please.

Trump’s own party put this ad out there.

Mourning in America

I noticed maybe two days ago that the sky looked different.  Couldn’t think how to describe it, but it just occurred to me, it’s cleaner.  Looking towards the horizon, the clouds are usually grayer than those above.  Now, they are not.  I don’t think I’m imagining it.  I sit here almost every day and look at the sky frequently while messing about on the laptop, and it definitely looks different to me.

Meanwhile, I have been kind of blah.  Lots of body pain, tired, not getting much of anything done.  Maybe the vacuuming did me in for a while.  But I did it.  Yay, me.  Looking back at that really good day I had April 14th.  Why can’t I have that kind of day more often?  Stupid fibromyalgia, that’s why.

Seeing a lot more people wearing masks, now that the order to do so has begun, but still not everyone I see, and still a lot of NOT social distancing.  It’s not really all about you, people. It’s about the people you come in contact with, the ones whose lives you are risking, because while you may feel fine, you can still be infected and infect others.  Do you really want to be responsible for someone else’s death?  God, I hope not, but in this country right now, care and compassion and responsibility to others seems sadly lacking in an awful lot of people.  Sad.

I, on the other hand, have at least one good neighbor, who brought up my Amazon packages, knocked, and left. This was NOT the delivery person, cause I’d need to buzz the in, and that didn’t happen.  So my boxes are sitting in the hallway for a few days before opening.  Not too many days, cause one box is cat food, and we are getting pretty low there, Gertrude.  Cardboard is supposed to be okay after 24 hours, but after being as sick as I was in December, I tend to be overly cautious.  Better safe than sorry.

Hope everyone is staying safe, and not putting their own convenience above the well-being of those around them.  It’s a beautiful day today.  Too chill to open the windows, but very pleasant to look upon the new leaves and the fluffy white clouds and the blue sky.  Lots to be glad about.  I was thinking about how privileged I am.  Safe place to live, heat, food, cat, wonderful friends.  These things greatly outweigh any ‘can’t’ situations in in my life.  I will not be holding signs about how poor me’s rights are being violated because I can’t get a haircut.  What about the rights of all those you come in contact with?  The ones with compromised immune systems, the ones with chronic illnesses, the ones who may not be able to fight off the virus and it’s horrid effects?  Do they not matter to you at all?  Do  they not have a right to not be exposed by you to a life-threatening and sometimes fatal illness?  Guess not.  Your rights are all that matter to you.  For shame.

That middle picture shows you what happens when the seal in the window breaks.

There is a country that acts, not just hands out platitudes and does nothing.

https://www.necn.com/news/national-international/canada-bans-assault-style-weapons-after-mass-shooting/2266786/?fbclid=IwAR19mYtCugg_2WPw2H9DjV65xxszoqs5IB0pm6FmpRrSNi8VZEAeva1nmJQ