Life Lessons

One of the most important things I have learned is probably the hardest, because social media is everywhere. The lesson is: Never Compare Yourself or Your Life to Anyone Else. Only compare yourself to yourself. Am I a better person than I was last year. Have I taken better care of myself than I used to? Have I worked at maintaining a good attitude in spite of setbacks. You know. That sort of thing. NOT: am I being as productive during the pandemic as all those people I see on social media? Am I as thin, smart, beautiful, popular as anybody else anywhere, because seriously, who gives a flying fuck? All we need to know is if we did better today than we did yesterday, and if not, how can we do better tomorrow? Better at being a good person, better at taking care of ourselves and those around us, better at being a good citizen. Those are the things that matter. That’s what I think, anyway. This comes down to little things, like ‘did I tip well the person who brought me my order?’. Did I treat the waitperson with respect and courtesy? Did I offer to help someone who needed it that moment, like someone having difficulty on the stairs or crossing the street or whatever? Was I just kind and courteous and generous and polite to all those I met today? These things are important, not only to the other person, but to our own sense of self, and who we are in the world. Selfish, self-centered, self-righteous. All those ‘self’ words are the ones to work at NOT being.

Updates On Nothing Much At All

Back is better. Was more better (betterer?) yesterday,and I actually got a few things done. Unloaded the dishwasher, reloaded the dishwasher, ran the dishwasher, did some laundry in my new tub that sits in the bathtub for doing laundry in, I think that’s it. Didn’t need the cane to walk, and don’t need it today, either. Had franks and beans for dinner, and leftovers for lunch. Van Camp’s Pork and Beans, which are cowboy food as you can just eat them cold out of the can. We always had these growing up. I have not had franks and beans in decades, and they were pretty good. A bit salty, but not unbearably so. There is a law that you must have white bread and butter with them, and possibly a glass of milk. I did skip the milk in favor of Polar seltzer with added orange juice.

Much nicer today. Lower dew point, which makes a huge difference. Still warm, but less humidity makes it much more comfortably warm. Yesterday was pretty bad. The muggiest, most uncomfortable day this summer, up here in the highlands anyway. Which is what my friend Tess calls the second floor on which I live. Had to stay in front of the fan or else ‘whew!’ ick, ick, ick. Laundry was NOT fun.

News from online is still not good. Cutting assistance for people, including the no-eviction policies. Other countries treat their citizens like they matter. We here obviously do not matter to our government. They fake it here and there, but their underlying motives for every single thing they do is how rich can they get off it. “Serve your country”. Ha, serve yourself and your cronies more like it. I am soooo disappointed in my country and especially in those unbelievably non-thinking orange man worshipers. Cannot fix anything, though, so I just read on my Kindle and pretend the world does not exist. Except for Gertrude, cause she’s cute. 🙂

My friend who was very, very ill has recovered and tested negative for the virus twice. Relief. Was really worried about him. I have been friends with him and his wife for most of my adult life.

Tv is boring, even things I usually enjoy. I am just doing The West Wing, Small Animal Hospital (with Captain Jack, John Barrowman. He always makes me smile.), and QI, because who doesn’t need a good laugh these days? So mostly I am reading and reading and reading. Was going to catch up on Lucifer before the new season, but just cannot get into it. The first season was so great and then it just went on a slow slide downhill. I am a fan of Tom Ellis since Miranda, but it’s not enough. The pathologist they introduced just irritates the hell out of me and makes it not fun to watch. Also, whiny Lucifer, and the female star seems to get worse at acting every season. Just a wee little critique there, people. I do love the intro music, though. And DB Woodside. Because who does not love DB Woodside? Seriously.

Did not get to have even a glimpse at the comet, due to clouds and trees and light pollution. I cannot see stars, ever, where I am. Or the moon, cause my windows are in the wrong place. Except in October, for some reason if I sat in exactly the right place, I could see it at an angle. Weird. But cool. Yes, the round white light is the moon, rising. Surprise! First year I ever noticed it, but maybe earth orbit changed just enough to make it possible.

‘I failed my fellow Americans’: the white women defecting from Trump

‘I failed my fellow Americans’: the white women defecting from Trump

Did you ever, ladies, and we will be paying for it for a very long time. How anyone could actually believe that a reality TV personality and multi- bankruptcies narcissist knew anything about running a country is beyond me. Makes you wonder what kind of education colleges are serving up these days.

From The New York Times

“Republicans are seeking to lower the payments for tens of millions of jobless Americans to $200 a week in a $1 trillion recovery package. Democrats support a $3 trillion package that includes extending the $600-per-week federal payments, which expire on Friday, through the end of the year.”

Because they obviously need that money for themselves and Suckerberg and Jeffy baby. The rest of us are completely irrelevant. Look up what other countries are doing, and be outraged by your government. The one so many of you think is the best thing ever. Because clearly, your brains have given up working altogether.

Not Going At All Well

My back is becoming more and more of an issue every day. I am using my cane to hobble around, I am behind on everything. Dishes in the sink, vacuuming in bad need of being done, no cooking happening at all, it’s just all getting to be more and more of a mess. Keeping up with feed/water/litter box, because Miss G is utterly dependent upon me for her well-being, but my own is just not even getting consideration. I can’t. i can’t do this, I can’t do that. It’s very frustrating. I was doing so well, and Mother Nature never seems to like when that happens.

Not as hot or sticky today. Still puzzled by why I am tolerating it so well, as I never have before this year. Not complaining, Mother Nature. Perfectly happy tolerating hot and humid.

Still no new electric kettle. The one from Amazon was never even shipped from the seller, and my friend went to Walmart, and they only had one of the one I wanted, in a very damaged box. So no. I miss my kettle. If I could figure out how to keep the lid closed on my current one, but I have absolutely no ideas on that.

I am getting bread and lunch meat because I can throw together a sandwich. Things that don’t need much/any prep are the order of the day right now. I also have been drinking Polar Seltzer with added orange or pineapple juice. Very refreshing hot weather drink, and not sweet like soda. I am not a fan of sweet drinks, and never add sugar to coffee or tea. It’s also the reason I don’t like Oreos, too sickly sweet. Hydrox are my cookie. They were not available for a long time, but you can order them online now. Yay. They were actually the original chocolate sandwich cookie, but Oreo took over. Sugar is addictive, people. The sweeter it is, the more you want, the more you buy, the bigger the profit for the maker.
Diet soda is worse than regular, too. Do your research on that. Besides, what is funnier than hearing someone order a double cheeseburger with extra bacon, a large fry, and a diet Coke. Like regular Coke would be the problem in this order. Besides, Pepsi is better, anyway. 🙂 Diet Soda Health Issues

Today is the day Verizon FIOS, the worst customer service company in history, is supposed to auto deduct the three months of payment that it failed to deduct when it was supposed to. It’s on them. I have tried and tried and tried to resolve their failings, and now I just don’t care. Deduct, don’t deduct, shut me off. I can always go back to Comcast if they do. Not that Comcast is any better. My town once wanted to start it’s own internet provider, but somehow, it did not work out. Not sure why. We have a really good electric company, and our bills are much lower than any of the surrounding towns, and they would have been great to run an IP, I think. But no.

I cannot do much that involves movement, so rambling is my fall-back activity, it seems. Have a good day, readers, and please stay home, and wear your mask if you must go out. Save your friends, neighbors and loved ones, if you don’t care enough about yourself to take precautions, or if you mistakenly believe the virus is bogus or you are immune or immortal. Only the Highlander and Captain Jack are immortal. Trust me on this. 🙂Wear Your Mask, Please


From Bloomberg Business Week

How Ben & Jerry’s Perfected the Delicate Recipe for Corporate Activism

Remember Walmart way back when? Everything made in America. Made in America signs, US flags, the store made no bones about it. Then Sam Walton died and his heirs were more into greed and profit than supporting American-made products. Find something NOT made in China in Walmart now. Ben & Jerry’s is the only corporate entity I am aware of that has not abandoned the ideals of its founders. Look at Google. ‘Do no Evil’ was its motto. How’s that working out for them, I wonder.

This is why bad laws, bad tech, bad anything is just plain bad. “Well, it has safeguards, they guarantee they will never use my info, they promise to stick to ethics”, right up until someone else is in charge. This applies to government policies. It’s only safe as long as the people who wanted it to be safe are in charge. Then, all bets are off.

Your Government

I have thought that they are hoping we all just die off, those of us who are not ‘them’, the rich, I mean.
From The New York Times
‘FEMA Sends Faulty Protective Gear to Nursing Homes Battling Virus’

If you haven’t quite gotten that something is seriously wrong with this administration, I’m not sure how to help you. But you do need help. Badly.

Unhappy Jean is Unhappy

So I have started having a homemaker come on Fridays to do shopping and take out the trash. Handoffs through the door. She has come twice. Today, she said she was not feeling well. Bye, say I, and shut the door. Seriously? I have self-isolated for four months except for the fire alarm, and they send me an unwell person? WTF? How are we supposed to stay safe if the people in the health care business don’t even monitor their own employees. “She said she was just tired today” I was told when I called the agency about it. That’s not what she said to me, and do you not check? These people go into compromised people’s homes. Elderly people, people with chronic illnesses like me, and they can just expose us without a thought? Not happy. Not at all happy. Called my caseworker, and waiting for a call back. Stay safe, people. It may look like life is normal, but it is not, and is not going to be for a very long time, in spite of what the orange man and his worshipers want you to believe. It is on you to look out for yourself, and more importantly, for your loved ones. You may never get sick, but you can still pass on the virus to those friends and neighbors and family who may already be at risk. You can kill people with your selfishness and your misplaced outrage at being asked to wear a mask. It is to protect every one else, not just your own oh so special self. I do not understand the lack of compassion and sensitivity to other people’s needs that this administration has glorified in a good number of our fellow citizens. Selfish, selfish, selfish. The American Way. You all make me sick. No pun intended.


Not my favorite season when it’s hot and sticky, but I am doing well with just a fan blowing on me and the windows open, which is good because with my back issues right now, opening and closing windows is not on. One must adapt. 🙂 Meanwhile, I am reading, reading, reading. Hoping my Kindle hangs on, cause they only make touch screens now, which is the most stupid thing ever. Really. I am not the only one who hates them, either, judging from comments I’ve read here and there. You don’t get a choice anymore. Some idiot somewhere decides ‘this is better’, and that’s it. If you disagree, you are screwed. Look at the moron who killed Google Reader, because he didn’t like it. What about the rest of us who did? Unimportant.

Nothing good going on in this country. The whole Portland and sending troops into big cities thing is rather scary. I have pretty much started to avoid it all, because there is nothing I can do about any of it, and life is hard enough with chronic illness and pain. Less stress is a good thing. Speaking of which, a cartoon from a newsletter I get:

From a Gizmodo Post

Stupidity is a more dangerous enemy of the good than malice. One may protest against evil; it can be exposed and, if need be, prevented by use of force.

Against stupidity we are defenseless; facts that contradict one’s prejudgment simply need not be believed, and when facts are irrefutable they are just pushed aside as inconsequential, as incidental. For that reason, greater caution is called for when dealing with a stupid person than with a malicious one.

It seems obvious that stupidity is less a psychological than a sociological problem. It is a particular form of the impact of historical circumstances on human beings, a psychological concomitant of certain external conditions.

The fact that the stupid person is often stubborn must not blind us to the fact that he speaks on behalf of an empowered group. In conversation with him, one feels that one is dealing not at all with him as a person, but with slogans and catchwords that have taken possession of him.

The stupid man is under a spell…[And] having become a mindless tool, the stupid person will also be capable of any evil and at the same time incapable of seeing that it is evil.

-Dietrich Bonhoeffer

It Was All For Nothing

Four months of self-isolation.  Today we had a fire alarm.  Down the stairs with lots of other people, none wearing masks including me, cause that was the last thing on my mind.  No distancing as we’re standing outside, although I did manage to move upwind from everybody.  Back up in the elevator with other people, because no way could I climb the stairs in this much pain.  So if anybody is infected, I am screwed.  Gertrude was terrified and hid before I could grab her, so I was freaking out about having to leave her.  Fortunately, it was over quickly, false alarm I guess, but very upsetting.  Mostly about Miss G, but also, all that isolation, and for what? 


Yeuch!  I had to break down and close the windows and turn on the a/c, because just all of a sudden I was melting.  First time all summer.  So now I am shut in.  Seals on the windows are broken,so they are not clear even a little bit, so my view is hazy at best,  I cannot feel the breeze or hear the traffic and people, and it’s only been maybe half an hour and I am already feeling claustrophobic.  Or something.  Do not like.  DO NOT LIKE.  I can bear this with the windows open, because there is still some sense of connection with the world, but shut in is another story.  and there is the teeniest, cutest dog across the street.  On a leash.  But tinier than Miss G.  I swear it looks maybe 8 inches tall if that.  Puppy?  Anyway, crazy Jean is now going officially crazier.  Stay tuned.