>Gertrude?

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I did not sleep well last night, so I am very tired today. Not getting as much done as yesterday. Did have the visit from Mary Ellen this morning, folded some laundry, made my lunch, watched tv.

The problem is, I can’t find Gertrude. She usually comes out after she’s sure everyone but me is gone, and I have said ‘treats’ several times and shaken the bag, looked in all the cupboards and closets, under the bed, under the shelves, all the places she usually hides, and no Gertrude She has to be here somewhere, and there aren’t that many places to hide. I know she didn’t go out, because she has never gone out on her own, and will not even go near the door when anyone goes in or out. Gertrude, where are you? I guess I’ll have to wait until she gets hungry enough.

Mary Ellen asked about the cats and so I had to tell her about Simon, and now Gertrude has gone super-invisible as opposed to her normal invisible. Not my best day. But it’s gorgeous outside, so some compensation.

>Yesterday

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I had a good day.  Got a lot accomplished (for me, anyway).  Cleared up some bedding that needed a better place in the bedroom, turned the table sideways so it fits better in the room, finally put together the Aero-Garden after only a month of it sitting there.  I even ate three meals.  My breakfast drink, a peanut butter sandwich, and Kraft mac and cheese.  Yum, good nutrition.  Ha.  But then I had a bad night.  I don’t like to say ‘bad’ night, or ‘bad’ day, because every day and night is a good thing, but I can’t think of a descriptive word for ‘couldn’t sleep, felt achy, pain everywhere, headache,’ or any of the many other things that come with fibro/CFS.  ‘Fibrolicious’ doesn’t quite have the proper connotation.  Anyway, it’s a gorgeous cool, breezy day and I’m hoping to get some more accomplished.  I also look forward to a visit from the Homemaker Service nurse, who comes to check on me every three months.  I am awake, I am awake, I am awake. 

>Time for a Change

>Found a new site with backgrounds for Blogger, so time to update for autumn, my favorite season. Feeling kind of ‘time to change things again’ ish, and not just the blog. I really am hoping to have enough energy to move a few things around. My teeny tiny kitchen is just too cluttered, and I need to move my shelf back to the hall and make it be my pantry. There’s just not enough room for everything in the kitchen, and this way I can easily see what food I have on hand, too. I thought it would be better to have the heavy appliances, like the mixer, on the counter instead of the shelf, and that means the dry goods jars have to go elsewhere. Thus the shelf becoming the pantry. I just need the energy to move everything.

Gertrude is still the invisible cat, but not as much as she was. She actually walked right by Tess the other day on her way from one hiding place to another. First time ever. No one but me ever sees her unless the vacuum gets too close to her hiding place. Then you see a black streak heading to under the bed. She’s trying to be bolder with sitting on my lap, but is still holding back. She will sit between me and the chair arm, but not actually ON my lap. Poor baby. I don’t know how to untimidize her except by time and patience and just being as nice as I can to her. I try not to scare her, but sometimes I move too fast or laugh or something and off she goes. She’s never going to be like my Simon, but she is sort of good company, and no work to speak of. Empty the litter box, put out the food and water. That’s about all she requires.

My friend Tess has gone on vacation for two weeks, so I am going to be pretty all alone except for the two hours on Thursdays when my homemaker comes. I’m hoping to get up enough energy and gumption to actually go out and go somewhere, like the library, on my own. Lots of extra-strength Excedrin first, of course, or the legs will not cooperate.

But whatever else is going on, it’s autumn. I love autumn. And Chuck. And Life. Two shows that make me smile when they’re about to come on. Smiling is a good thing.

>Weather

>It’s definitely autumn.  The chill has arrived.  Today was cool, breezy, lots of sunshine, lovely.  Went out with my friend Tess to Walmart to stock up on some items, then back to her house to play with her dog.  Poor doggie has allergies and has been chewing on her feet, so vet prescribed a shot and Prednisone.  No, No, No.  This is not the same little doggie.  No playfulness, no energy, no nothing.  It’s very hard on Tess, and she feels responsible.  I blame the vet for prescribing such a heavy drug for a 14 pound dog with an annoying, not health-threatening condition.  Fortunately, Misty is only on this for a short time, so we’re hoping she bounces back to her old (bouncy) self.  Poor baby.  Poor Tess. 

I am doing pretty well.  The melatonin is helping, even if sporadically, and today I got my scrip for the Zanaflex which almost always works and works well.  So I have two options every day.  Sleep is good.  Not being able to get to sleep is not good.  Sleeping for twelve or more hours at a time is also not good.

I cooked yesterday.  Yes.  Me.  I cooked.  It was very stressful and tiring and painful, but except for that was an easy dish and came out really well.  Chicken breasts, artichoke hearts, potatoes, Parmesan.  Yum.  Happy Fall.

>Melatonin

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Been taking it a few days now.  It works, almost too well.  I got 3 mg tablets, and even with half of one, I sleep for 12 hours.  Too long.  Night before last my allergies were in hyperdrive so I took allergy pills, not melatonin.  Up all night, finally went to sleep around 5 am, I think.  Woke up at 6:30 pm.  Missed the entire day.  Anyway, took the small half of a melatonin at 9pm  or so, back to bed at 10:30 pm and slept twelve hours.  So here I am.  My life is sooo interesting.  🙂

>ANother Official Announcement

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Yes, I officially give up, yet again, the whole ‘but I don’t want to be a vampire’ struggle.  I have gone to bed at various times, with various or no sleep aids, and still have woken up around 3:30pm every day for a week or more.  So instead of berating myself and being depressed because I missed the day, I am just starting it when I get up as though it were 8am.  Today is the first day.  So far, it’s helping, except that I am so addicted to this darn internet that most of my time is still spent on here.  But……I have cleaned part of the frig, and am working on the rest.  Progress.  Life is too short to beat myself up over things which I definitely see to have no control.  So I choose to just be happy with whatever. And tonight is ‘Chuck’, so I’m just naturally happy anyway.

>It’s Autumn

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My favorite season.  Cool crisp days, chilly nights, an extra blanket, and no hot and sticky.  I don’t love hot and sticky.  The trees across the street always turn late, because the big parking lot light shines on them all night.  It used to shine on me all night, too, but they moved it. 

I am having such trouble with the darn sleep thing.  Took a Benadryl last night and slept very well.  Even woke up just before 9am.  Did the morning routines, tidied up the bathroom, washed and filled some soap containers, and realized I needed to go back to bed around 9:30.  Okay, a little extra snoozing.  Ha!  Woke up at 3:30pm.  I was very unhappy, because now I can’t sleep tonight.  This is starting to really get me down.  I don’t want to be a vampire, thank you very much.  I like sunshine and  daylight.  Really, I do.  To quote one of my favorite songs, “Just can’t seem to get it right today.  Guess I’m gonna give up.”  Drat.

The last Eureka was on tonight.  I do love that show.  I’m hoping “House” and “The Mentalist” will be on On Demand or on-line.  I did see “NCIS” another favorite.  Finally, some decent tv more than once or twice a week.  I  am almost never out at night, and I like to watch tv. 

I’m trying hard not to see any new stories about the economy, the election, or just about anything else Washington-related.  It ain’t easy, but I’m trying.  I can’t fix anything, and since no one bothered to ask my opinion anyway, I just want to avoid the whole mess.  I have done a lot of organizing of bookmarks and files and such.  Something I can do something about.  🙂

>AhChoo!!!

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Yes, it was a sneezy, allergyific day today.  Slept through most of it, but the awake part wasn’t fun.  Otherwise, it was a lovely day.  Sunny and cool.  I didn’t do much, since I was mostly asleep, but I had leftovers from the nice dinner I made yesterday, so I did eat well. 

Talked to my friend Tess on the phone.  She is almost finished with the table runner she is quilting for a gift.  It’s really pretty, and the book she got the pattern from was all about the Underground Railroad, and how the slaves used quilt patterns to pass messages to those escaping.  Fascinating, and so very clever. 

Kind of given up on the sleep thing and just going to bed when I’m sleepy, and not when I’m not.  Oh, well.

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>Brrrr

>Well, it’s not THAT cold, but it’s pretty chilly. Had to close the living room window almost all the way. It’s windy, and it was coming right in. Brrrr! Not a great week. Really tired, and yesterday felt unwell with stomach and headaches. Better today.

Gettig excited about the new tv season, which is finally about to start. All my favorite summer shows are either over or were cancelled and not even on this summer. The 4400 comes to mind. Burn Notice, The Closer, not sure if Eureka has one more episode or not. But now comes Chuck The Big Bang, Betty and Grey’s. I love tv.

>A Disappointing Day

>Been having some sleep issues still. My body wants to sleep between 5 or 6 am and noon or later. I want it to sleep fro midnight to 8am or some other ‘Look, it’s mornig and I’m up!’ hours. I did manage to get up at 10 this morning, but then fell asleep on the recliner later. I am NOT a daytime nap person, so this irritates me.

It’s voting day, but I did not make it. The friend I was going with isn’t feeling well, and the voting place is much too far to walk. I hate to think that all the Republicans will be out in force, and I didn’t contribute any to getting their party out of office. Does this mean I can’t vote in November? I never quite understand the ‘you’re registered, you’re not registered’ qualifications. I was getting absentee ballots for a while, but they stopped coming.

Very slumpy today. Not enough sleep or hangover from the Benadryl I took last night. How DOES one change their body clock? I’ve tried just about everything I can think of or have read about, including staying up for 36 hours. Didn’t work.

It’s a gray and coolish day. You can really feel Autumn now, especially in the evenings. It’s my favorite time of the year.

I can’t find the link to post a picture. It vanished. So that’s the name of that tune. My keyboard has some issues with N, M and on to the right, so if letters are missing, that’s why.

>What I did Today

>I had a very good day. That’s Gertrude, by the way. She’s not fat, but she sure is furry. Anyway, I got up at 11 or so, did my morning routine, got ready for my homemaker, and turned on the pc, of course. Homemaker came, homemaked, left, and my friend Tess came over. I took three extra-strength Excedrin, which I do when I will be walking at all. We went to Christmas Tree Shop, where I got a little bottle of citrus flavored mustard for a dollar, then to Walmart where I bought some cereal and things, a new trash bucket for the kitchen, and some filters for my Pur faucet attachment. Those things are expensive!! Then we bought Coolattas and went to her house, watched a movie, had dinner, gave her hubbies a hard time, and played on the computer. Came back here, played on the pc some more, she left, and now I am still on here at 1:20 am, when I should be in bed pretending that I can actually sleep at night. My life is so very exciting, but I do get to laugh an awful lot. Think I actually will go to bed now. I am having a good spell, without much pain and with a little bit of actual energy, so I am enjoying it as much as possible. And that’s all for today.

>Thinking, Just Thinking

>I know, I know.  Posting these things isn’t the same as blogging, ut I’ve been kind of busy.  I’m thinking about changing my focus on here, or maybe changing to more focused about living with fibro.  I thought I might just write down what I did each day, and how I felt.  Get some accountability, and get back to why I started this in the first place.  We’ll see how it goes. 

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the Wit

(52% dark, 15% spontaneous, 11% vulgar)
                       

your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK

You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you’re probably an intellectual, but don’t take that to mean pretentious. You realize ‘dumb’ can be witty–after all isn’t that the Simpsons’ philosophy?–but  rudeness for its own sake, ‘gross-out’ humor and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.

I  guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff  writer.

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>Yes. Yes, I am.

>Your results:
You are Data

Data
61%
Deanna Troi
55%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)
55%
Will Riker
45%
Worf
45%
Geordi LaForge
40%
Uhura
35%
Mr. Sulu
35%
James T. Kirk (Captain)
30%
Jean-Luc Picard
30%
Spock
29%
Chekov
25%
Mr. Scott
10%
Beverly Crusher
10%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)
0%
Even though you are a genius
  you are always striving to be better.


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>This is cool

>Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test…

NFDC – The Seeker

Nature, Foreground, Detail, and Color

                       

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature.  You focus on what’s in front of you (the foreground) and how that is affected by the details of life.  You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you.  Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude.  You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can’t control.  You are highly focused on specific goals or tasks and find meaning in life by pursuing those goals.  You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

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>Relief

>I did a lot of computer-cleaning over the past few days, including my pictures folders  Was concerned that I messed up the blog, but the pictures are right there where they should be.

It’s been a good week. Saw and liked the new doctor on Monday, had some dental work done on Tuesday.  Not only did I remain pain free from the work, and did not go into a flare, I actually had a really good productive day Wednesday.  I am surprised, but very happily.

It is raining.  Just a brief shower, one of several today.  Except for the humidity, it has been almost fall-like this month.  Cool, lots of clouds, lots of rain.  Really lovely, lovely weather, and completely uusual for August.  I am NOT complaining.

I find that the longer it’s been since my Simon died, the sadder I am.  I really miss the little bugger.
Gertrude is blooming, but slowly, and she does not have his personality at all.  I miss him.  Darn it!!

>Blah, blah, blah

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It’s muggy.  Snowmen seem very appealing right now.  I am back to tired, achy, blah.  Missing my several days of feeling normal.  See the new doctor tomorrow, so I wrote out a list of questions for him.  I hope he is good.  He was the only one on the list talking my insurance, so I got him by default.  That’s all.  Too blah for posting.   

>Dentist Equals Flare

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Sad, but true.  Had my teeth cleaned Thursday, and then…..flare.  Tired the next day.  VERY tired the day after that, ending in pain.  Yesterday, pain.  Better today.  Going to allow recovery time after every dental visit from here on.  But my teeth look really good.  🙂

>Love my a/c.

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It’s hot.  Very, very hot.  So I am considering moving house.  The one pictured is very appealing right now.  It’s also been bad air for a couple of days, so the windows are closed and the a/c is on.  
I am thinking about getting a dog.  Gertrude is not very companionable, and a dog would force me to get outside.  But I also think it’s a really, really insane idea.  Gertrude is not much work at all, and I am really enjoying that. 
Just waiting for autumn.