>I just knew I was smarter than the average bear. HA! But it is good to know I’m not a total moron, even though I feel like one most days. LOL

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>My Sunday

>The dratted picture-adding link has disappeared again. Why is that? Anyway, my new list has 21 items, and I managed to do 11 of them, and will do two more before bed: clean the kitchen, and take meds, get ready for bed. Yes, my list is detailed, that way I get to mark off a lot, even if I’m not managing well. For instance, from stretching before I get out of bed to being fully dressed, hair combed, and curtains opened there are four more items. Hey, I’m not in ‘flying with fibro’ for nothing, folks. LOL So even though I was really tired today, and my arm is having some serious hurting from the bursitis, I still feel like I accomplished quite a bit for me. Some days, actually getting out of bed is my only accomplishment. And getting back in. It’s still cold and now it’s windy, but stopped snowing around noon, I think. Tomorrow it’s supposed to get up to 48. I love New England. Later

>Been Awhile

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I didn’t realize. It’s snowing today. Snow. I like snow. Not been managing well lately. Had a sinus infection and am having bursitis in my right shoulder. Two years ago I had it in the left. Why????? But I am on some serious antibiotics and feeling much better. Not the bursitis, but the infection. *smile*

I have determined to get my house at least a bit better organized, and except for the sleep-all-day days, have been getting a little done here and there. Finally. Also made a new schedule and I am going to stick to it. I built in lots of rest periods, and nothing too strenuous. Going to stick to Flylady’s 15 minutes at a time, only I’m going do to 15 minutes a day. Worked it all out. The problem with schedules and plans is that along comes the night I can’t sleep, or the day I can’t stay awake, and the whole thing goes out the window. I am really going to try to stick to it this time, and just start again after one of those days.

I am soooooo sick of being sick. When I saw the doctor for the sinus thing, I also made an appointment to just talk about my diagnosis and treatments. I am willing to start from scratch. I really like the new doctor. He listens and offers info like Dr. Ammerman did, not just treat-and-go like Dr. Rusu. I still miss Dr. Ammerman, but this new guy is great too. So I am hopeful.

This illness makes it really hard to have any sort of regularity to daily life, and I do tend to get discouraged and just quit caring sometimes, but I can still rebound, thank goodness. Mentally, if not physically. I get depressed, and then I can eventually find something to be hopeful about. I do have fun every day, too, even if it’s only LOLcats. I like LOLcats. That’s it for now.

>Bliss oh bliss!

>Yesterday I went to Brookstone with my friend Tess. We tried out the massage chairs, which we had done briefly before. I was in mine for about 20 minutes or so, because the salesman came over and was showing me all the features. Oh, oh, oh, did I want to buy that chair. It was only 2500 dollars. Yes, twenty-five hundred dollars. But when I got out of that chair, I felt amazing. My muscles were loose, my neck, which had been hurting for some time and which could not turn right or left without pain, was limber and pain-free. My right arm, which has a touch of bursitis, which limits it’s movement, moved freely in all directions. My legs did not hurt. I am almost always in pain and my muscles are tight and difficult to work. Gone, all gone. More than twenty-four hours later, I am still feeling great. Oh, I want that chair. It’s a miracle worker, and would maybe make fibro that much easier to live with. But lord, that is a lot of money. But I want that chair. Really, I do. Christmas is coming. Does some anonymous reader want to give me a really great present? Yeah, I didn’t think so. Oh, well. *smile*

It’s a beautiful, warm, balmy, rainy day, as it was yesterday. Windows open all night. I love this weather.

>I cooked. Yay, me.

>I bought a rotisserie chicken the other day, and I used some of it to make chicken and dumplings today, the easy version. Came out very tasty, so I was pleased. I also froze some of the chicken for another time. I’ve been having my SlimScript drink every day again, and I can really tell the difference. I have more energy and enthusiasm when I drink it regularly. It has 20 grams of protein and vitamins. So cooking is not out of the realm of possibility some day. It’s a good thing.

Another mild day with windows open. I am liking this. It’s been a great autumn so far. Lots of rain, which I love.

>It’s a good thing

>Had a pretty good day yesterday. Got some tidying up done Thursday, and then yesterday my friend Tess came over and we went to Joanne’s. I got some more yarn, and I actually started to crochet something. Not sure what it’s going to be yet, but it’s good to be making something again. I’ve been wanting to for quite some time, but just hadn’t gotten it together enough to get started. I also got some gimp. I know, gimp is so junior high, but I saw a pbs show the other day where they were using it, then in Joanne’s there was a package with some cool colors, so I got it. LOL Regression, it’s a good thing.

Last night, my friend Beth came over and brought Chinese food. We had a nice meal and a nicer chat. She is having kind of a hard time lately, and has isolated herself, which I know all about, believe me. So I offered to be her cheering-up connection, and promised to call her. And I will. I miss her in my life. She doesn’t live too far away, but her life is soooo busy, and the isolating thing just cuts her off from her friends. So I can be a good thing. It’s good to not always be the needy one.

Before she came over, I had started with some pain, which only got worse, and by the time I went to bed, I was having some serious pain. I spent most of today in bed, trying to sleep through it, and feel somewhat better now. I’m glad it didn’t turn into a full-blown flare. I want to enjoy my life, and pain kind of gets in the way when it’s really bad.

It is still lovely, lovely weather. Still grey and rainy and mild, windows open for a few days and nights now. I like this kind of weather. My Aerogarden is doing very well, and will need some cutting back pretty soon. It’s nice to have some fresh green things growing. I do like herbs, so I’m looking forward to using them soon.

My shoulder is hurting quite a bit still, and typing seems to make it worse, so I am done for now. Happy life, everyone.

>The other guy

>Here is a quote from another blog someone pointed me to. It is exactly what I wish I was articulate enough to have said. Here’s the blog, then the quote:

http://www.americablog.com/2008/11/magnanimity-is-nice-but-lets-not-forget.html

“Your side was abominable. Your side was hateful. Your side race-baited. Your side gay-baited. Your side lied like we’ve never seen in recent presidential campaign history. Your side used a tax-cheat who would do better under Obama’s tax proposal to be your everyman on the issue of taxes. Your side, in a veiled effort at race-baiting, said Obama doesn’t put his country first. Your side had the audacity to call Obama a socialist. Your side suggested he was a Muslim. Your side suggested he was a terrorist. Your side suggested he was Osama bin Laden.

Spare me the crap about how both sides do it. You people are a disgrace, you’ve been a disgrace for eight long years, and all your hate and lying and venom and vitriol finally bit you in your collective fat ass.”

>Yes we can

>http://yeswecanhas.com/

It occurred to me today: once again I can be proud of my country. For a long time, I have been ashamed and often found myself saying “This is not the country I grew up in. This is not my America.” Torture, Katrina, spying on our own citizens, pre-emptive wars. I was unhappy with my country. Now I can feel proud again. I have not felt hopeful in such a long time, it is good to feel good about the United States again. Yes we can, America. Yes we can.

>Woo Hoo!!!!!!

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OBAMA WINS!!!!!  Is this the coolest day ever or what?  I am not black, but I am so pleased and happy that we finally, finally have broken through the racial barrier and voted for a man of color.  I was happy when Clinton won, but I am ecstatic tonight.  America is finally coming into it’s own.  Well done, America!!

>A good day.

>After sleeping til 3pm yesterday, and staying awake (involuntarily) til around six am today, I got up at 11. I even got dressed, then went out with my friend Tess. We got a coollata and then went to her house and played on the computer. It was a gorgeous, no-coat-needed kind of day. I am hoping to sleep tonight and have another daytime life tomorrow, but we’ll see how it goes.

Am checking news every now and then, but really it’s all speculation at this point. Am really looking forward to seeing who wins, even if it’s not my guy. It will tell us a bit about what to expect in the future, I think. I am hoping for not the same old same old. It’s exciting to be alive during such an important decision for the world. I really wanted to vote to feel that I am part of history. That I took part in an historical vote. It was a good day.

>Well, barf!

>Now that I changed my blog’s look, I can’t figure out how to change it back.
Also, I am feeling a bit peeved. I do read another blog by someone with a chronic, debilitating illness and someone else commented negatively on it. Everyone is different. Illness does not affect everyone exactly the same way. Some people can function better, some not so much. Those of us who do function better do not need to be judgmental of those of us who do not. We would all be working and getting on in life if we were able. No one chooses to struggle, it just happens. I’d go back and do my job in an instant if I was able. I’d cook every day, and do my own vacuuming and laundry and shopping if I could. It’s no fun having strangers come into your home and wash your undies and clean your toilet. It’s not easy to shop second hand. I am a visual person, and I can eat very well if I can see what’s in the store and be reminded of it. Making lists is another story. I can never think of what to eat. I’d be the other me so fast it would make your head swim if I could. But I can’t. Apparently I never will, either. This isn’t something that goes away. It’s not fatal, but boy it sure does change your life forever. It’s painful, and exhausting, and frustrating, and sad, and difficult, and isolating. So you can still work. Well more power to you. But don’t judge those of us who can’t. It is hard enough without being judged for things over which you have little or no control. So just shut up, Martha.

>Feeling Lonely

>Couldn’t find a good ‘feeling lonely’ clip art picture. Today has been kind of a ‘feeling lonely’ day. I’ve been cooking (yay, me), and I guess it’s just kind of sad to cook for one. I don’t know. Just been on my own for the past two weeks, except for the Homemaker person two hours on Thursdays. I really need to get a life.

I cooked turkey pie. I love ground turkey. I use it everywhere I used to use ground beef, but this is especially a ground turkey dish-with cheese, too. I love cheese. I also am baking a ricotta cheesecake. For some reason I thought it meant ‘like a pie’ so I was going to use a graham cracker crust from the store. Once I mixed it all, I realized there was no way it was going to fit into the crust. I had a Pillsbury pie crust in the frig, so I put that in a regular pie pan and was going to split the filling. It all fit into the pie crust, so the graham cracker crust went back to waiting for a filling some day. My life is sooooo interesting. LOL

>VOTE!

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I  voted today.  I went to the town hall which is only across the street and did an absentee ballot, since I can’t guarantee I’ll be feeling well enough to get to the polling place on the actual day.  So I’ve done my duty, and I really hope my guy gets in.  We need change.  Not ‘same old, same old’ fake change, but real change.  They are scaring me anyway with all the hate and fear they are fomenting.  They think that is good for the country?  Really? 

It was drizzly and chilly, but that’s my kind of weather, so I enjoyed being out.  Walking hurt, even though I’d taken three extra strength Excedrins earlier.  I need to do something to get my muscles back.  I lost my muscle strength when I got sick, and even though I’ve tried here and there to exercise, it always causes me to get worse for a while.  Sucky illness.  🙂

>Yes, I AM Up Late

>I am also disappointed in myself that I haven’t gotten more done lately. After my one good day on Tuesday, I’ve been tired every day, either having to go back for a nap or just sleeping most of the day. Sometimes I get really frustrated with being ill. Well, tomorrow is another day, and I am going to be on top of things. I really want to move some more things around so I can get the kitchen more organized. There is just no room to do anything on my what? 3 square feet of counter space when it’s cleared off? It’s not cleared off. Hey, my knock-out pill is kicking in, so off to bed shortly.

>Brrr!

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It was darn chilly when I got up today, and I had to turn on the heat. I’m trying to keep it low or not use it at all, cause I don’t want to go bankrupt paying for it this winter. I bought heavy clear vinyl shower curtains last year and hung them in the front windows. That way I get light but keep out some of the cold. They are ready to go this year as soon as I’m sure I won’t be opening the windows again.

I’ve been watching ‘Third Rock’ on TVLand. I have been laughing all afternoon. That was a funny, funny show. My favorite is Harry. He cracks me up. Later.

>Another Test

>Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn?  Or Someone Else?  Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz…

You Are an Audrey!

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You are an Audrey — “I am at peace”

Audreys are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me  

  • * If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don’t like expectations or pressure
  • * I like to listen and to be of service, but don’t take advantage of this
  • * Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit
  • * Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It’s OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally
  • * Ask me questions to help me get clear
  • * Tell me when you like how I look. I’m not averse to flattery
  • * Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings
  • * I like a good discussion but not a confrontation
  • * Let me know you like what I’ve done or said
  • * Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life

What I Like About Being an Audrey

  • * being nonjudgmental and accepting
  • * caring for and being concerned about others
  • * being able to relax and have a good time
  • * knowing that most people enjoy my company; I’m easy to be around
  • * my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
  • * my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
  • * being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What’s Hard About Being an Audrey

  • * being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
  • * being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
  • * being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
  • * being confused about what I really want
  • * caring too much about what others will think of me
  • * not being listened to or taken seriously

Audreys as Children Often

  • * feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
  • * tune out a lot, especially when others argue
  • * are “good” children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Audreys as Parents

  • * are supportive, kind, and warm
  • * are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

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>She’s Baa-aack

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A while later, I just saw her out of the corner of my eye, moving from here to there.  But I had looked ‘here’ earlier, and she wasn’t there.  I looked everywhere.  Maybe she really does have the gift of invisibility.

Watched the last debate last night.  OMG, as people say.  I am not for McCain, but I used to at least have some respect for him.  But with all the nastiness lately from his campaign, and then last night that horrible fake smile, and the expressions, and also he kept looking to his left, as if someone was there prompting him.  Yes, he has more experience, but Nixon had more experience than Kennedy, and look what a disaster he turned out to be.  $5000.00 to buy your own health care.  Puhleeze!  When you are sick, you can barely get yourself to the doctor, let alone first have to find some plans, assess the pluses and minuses to see which covers and fits your situation, buy it, etc., etc., etc.  And $5000.00?  Has anyone checked the price of health coverage today?  What a sorry mess.  I am getting an absentee ballot, since I cannot guarantee being functional enough on the day to get to the polls, and I do want to vote.  It’s important that we do not keep the people who got us in this mess in office, and I also want to be part of history, electing the first black president.  Or African-American.  Or whatever the politically correct term is now.  I was not old enough to vote for Kennedy, and wouldn’t have if I was.  I don’t want to miss this opportunity to do the right thing.  Enough of the political rant for today.

It is a gray day.  Really autumnal.  Haven’t heard if we’re in for rain or not, but I like rain and always welcome it.  Hoping to get some more accomplished today.  Later.