>Snow???

>My confidence in a white Christmas may have been premature. It has warmed up considerably and is raining the snow away. There may be none left tomorrow. I’m sure this makes the street crews happy. They were out very late last night clearing off snow from the downtown area streets. We have a good highway department here. All of our services are great, in fact. Fire, police, downtown association. They keep the downtown nice and appealing with lots to do during the year. Small towns can be great, although not all of them I’ve lived in have been as great as this one.

I am watching an On Demand video of snow falling on pines with Christmas music in the background. Very nice. Hope all of my (one? two?) readers have a wonderful holiday, and a healthy new year.

>Snow (still)

>It’s been snowing now for 24 hours. Very pretty. It’s piled up a bit on the ledges outside my windows. I think we’ve gotten about 8 or 9 inches so far. It’s only 19 degrees, too. I love winter.

After a really good day yesterday, I did not sleep very well and woke up with a sinus headache. So I am dragging today. But that’s okay. I had a good week and I loved it. Going to make some cheese balls for the freezer later, and someone posted a good pork loin crockpot recipe I am going to try in the next few days. I don’t use my crockpot enough. Hoping there is something on tv that’s watchable this afternoon, even old Lifetime Christmas movies I’ve seen would be better than all the reality drek and infomercials that seem to glut the digital…….what’s digital? Regular tv you can say ‘the airwaves’, but digital? Oh, well.

>Snow

>It started snowing at 2pm and has been coming down like crazy ever since. Very pretty. I don’t have to be out in it, so I am loving it. Had another good day. Up at 8:45. Got organized for the homemaker including making the shopping list. Got some extra things because next week we are supposed to get another storm, and it’s good to be prepared in case she can’t come. I’ve been keeping up with the dishes by hand, and gotten some more neatening/organizing done. I’d love this all to last, but if it doesn’t, I’m enjoying it while it’s here. It’s almost strange to feel relatively normal. It’s been such a long time since I’ve had days this good. Looking forward to Christmas, even though I have done nothing in preparation. No decorations or tree, didn’t send a card or buy a present or anything. It’s kind of late now, so I choose not to worry about it. Hey, I have a chronic, debilitating illness, right? LOL

>Sleep Experiment

>I’ve been having some problems with either not sleeping or not staying awake. So I decided to take a week for an experiment. It’s day four. I quit all my meds except Excedrin and asthma inhaler. No knock-you-out pills. I actually am feeling much better. More alert. The sleep schedule is interesting, too. The first day or so, I slept a few hours here and there. Night before last I went to bed at 5pm and got up at 1:30 am. Crashed at 8pm last night, and woke up at 3:45 this morning. It’s 5:30 now. I’m up, dressed, had my coffee. Feeling good. I did get a pain flare yesterday afternoon, but was better after my friend Tess felt well enough to come over for some Big Kahuna. We always get hysterical playing that, because it makes up it’s own words, which are sometimes pretty funny, and most often nonsensical. But they get us points and laughter. I guess laughter really is the best medicine. I’m feeling some pain this morning, so I will take some Excedrin, but overall, I think this experiment is working pretty well. I even cooked yesterday.

>Oh, I figured it out!

>If I use Blogger dashboard, no link for pictures, if I go through my blog, link. Hmmmm.

So far today (today started at 1:30 am) I have had a lovely bath, spent some time trying to untangle my hair which never gets tangled but is severely tangled today, made simple syrup, made pesto with my home-grown basil and parsley, and messed about on the computer for way, way too long. I was hoping to go out, but friend Tess is not feeling well. If I get really enthusiastic, I may go to the post office. It is a lovely and warm day. Almost 60 degrees. Love it!

I am listening to that Christmas music from my previous post. I got that link from Projo Subterranean Homepage News, a blog in the Providence Journal, Projo.com. Old-fashioned music, but interesting.

>I just knew I was smarter than the average bear. HA! But it is good to know I’m not a total moron, even though I feel like one most days. LOL

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>Bliss oh bliss!

>Yesterday I went to Brookstone with my friend Tess. We tried out the massage chairs, which we had done briefly before. I was in mine for about 20 minutes or so, because the salesman came over and was showing me all the features. Oh, oh, oh, did I want to buy that chair. It was only 2500 dollars. Yes, twenty-five hundred dollars. But when I got out of that chair, I felt amazing. My muscles were loose, my neck, which had been hurting for some time and which could not turn right or left without pain, was limber and pain-free. My right arm, which has a touch of bursitis, which limits it’s movement, moved freely in all directions. My legs did not hurt. I am almost always in pain and my muscles are tight and difficult to work. Gone, all gone. More than twenty-four hours later, I am still feeling great. Oh, I want that chair. It’s a miracle worker, and would maybe make fibro that much easier to live with. But lord, that is a lot of money. But I want that chair. Really, I do. Christmas is coming. Does some anonymous reader want to give me a really great present? Yeah, I didn’t think so. Oh, well. *smile*

It’s a beautiful, warm, balmy, rainy day, as it was yesterday. Windows open all night. I love this weather.

>I cooked. Yay, me.

>I bought a rotisserie chicken the other day, and I used some of it to make chicken and dumplings today, the easy version. Came out very tasty, so I was pleased. I also froze some of the chicken for another time. I’ve been having my SlimScript drink every day again, and I can really tell the difference. I have more energy and enthusiasm when I drink it regularly. It has 20 grams of protein and vitamins. So cooking is not out of the realm of possibility some day. It’s a good thing.

Another mild day with windows open. I am liking this. It’s been a great autumn so far. Lots of rain, which I love.

>It’s a good thing

>Had a pretty good day yesterday. Got some tidying up done Thursday, and then yesterday my friend Tess came over and we went to Joanne’s. I got some more yarn, and I actually started to crochet something. Not sure what it’s going to be yet, but it’s good to be making something again. I’ve been wanting to for quite some time, but just hadn’t gotten it together enough to get started. I also got some gimp. I know, gimp is so junior high, but I saw a pbs show the other day where they were using it, then in Joanne’s there was a package with some cool colors, so I got it. LOL Regression, it’s a good thing.

Last night, my friend Beth came over and brought Chinese food. We had a nice meal and a nicer chat. She is having kind of a hard time lately, and has isolated herself, which I know all about, believe me. So I offered to be her cheering-up connection, and promised to call her. And I will. I miss her in my life. She doesn’t live too far away, but her life is soooo busy, and the isolating thing just cuts her off from her friends. So I can be a good thing. It’s good to not always be the needy one.

Before she came over, I had started with some pain, which only got worse, and by the time I went to bed, I was having some serious pain. I spent most of today in bed, trying to sleep through it, and feel somewhat better now. I’m glad it didn’t turn into a full-blown flare. I want to enjoy my life, and pain kind of gets in the way when it’s really bad.

It is still lovely, lovely weather. Still grey and rainy and mild, windows open for a few days and nights now. I like this kind of weather. My Aerogarden is doing very well, and will need some cutting back pretty soon. It’s nice to have some fresh green things growing. I do like herbs, so I’m looking forward to using them soon.

My shoulder is hurting quite a bit still, and typing seems to make it worse, so I am done for now. Happy life, everyone.

>A good day.

>After sleeping til 3pm yesterday, and staying awake (involuntarily) til around six am today, I got up at 11. I even got dressed, then went out with my friend Tess. We got a coollata and then went to her house and played on the computer. It was a gorgeous, no-coat-needed kind of day. I am hoping to sleep tonight and have another daytime life tomorrow, but we’ll see how it goes.

Am checking news every now and then, but really it’s all speculation at this point. Am really looking forward to seeing who wins, even if it’s not my guy. It will tell us a bit about what to expect in the future, I think. I am hoping for not the same old same old. It’s exciting to be alive during such an important decision for the world. I really wanted to vote to feel that I am part of history. That I took part in an historical vote. It was a good day.

>Well, barf!

>Now that I changed my blog’s look, I can’t figure out how to change it back.
Also, I am feeling a bit peeved. I do read another blog by someone with a chronic, debilitating illness and someone else commented negatively on it. Everyone is different. Illness does not affect everyone exactly the same way. Some people can function better, some not so much. Those of us who do function better do not need to be judgmental of those of us who do not. We would all be working and getting on in life if we were able. No one chooses to struggle, it just happens. I’d go back and do my job in an instant if I was able. I’d cook every day, and do my own vacuuming and laundry and shopping if I could. It’s no fun having strangers come into your home and wash your undies and clean your toilet. It’s not easy to shop second hand. I am a visual person, and I can eat very well if I can see what’s in the store and be reminded of it. Making lists is another story. I can never think of what to eat. I’d be the other me so fast it would make your head swim if I could. But I can’t. Apparently I never will, either. This isn’t something that goes away. It’s not fatal, but boy it sure does change your life forever. It’s painful, and exhausting, and frustrating, and sad, and difficult, and isolating. So you can still work. Well more power to you. But don’t judge those of us who can’t. It is hard enough without being judged for things over which you have little or no control. So just shut up, Martha.

>Feeling Lonely

>Couldn’t find a good ‘feeling lonely’ clip art picture. Today has been kind of a ‘feeling lonely’ day. I’ve been cooking (yay, me), and I guess it’s just kind of sad to cook for one. I don’t know. Just been on my own for the past two weeks, except for the Homemaker person two hours on Thursdays. I really need to get a life.

I cooked turkey pie. I love ground turkey. I use it everywhere I used to use ground beef, but this is especially a ground turkey dish-with cheese, too. I love cheese. I also am baking a ricotta cheesecake. For some reason I thought it meant ‘like a pie’ so I was going to use a graham cracker crust from the store. Once I mixed it all, I realized there was no way it was going to fit into the crust. I had a Pillsbury pie crust in the frig, so I put that in a regular pie pan and was going to split the filling. It all fit into the pie crust, so the graham cracker crust went back to waiting for a filling some day. My life is sooooo interesting. LOL

>Brrr!

>
It was darn chilly when I got up today, and I had to turn on the heat. I’m trying to keep it low or not use it at all, cause I don’t want to go bankrupt paying for it this winter. I bought heavy clear vinyl shower curtains last year and hung them in the front windows. That way I get light but keep out some of the cold. They are ready to go this year as soon as I’m sure I won’t be opening the windows again.

I’ve been watching ‘Third Rock’ on TVLand. I have been laughing all afternoon. That was a funny, funny show. My favorite is Harry. He cracks me up. Later.

>She’s Baa-aack

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A while later, I just saw her out of the corner of my eye, moving from here to there.  But I had looked ‘here’ earlier, and she wasn’t there.  I looked everywhere.  Maybe she really does have the gift of invisibility.

Watched the last debate last night.  OMG, as people say.  I am not for McCain, but I used to at least have some respect for him.  But with all the nastiness lately from his campaign, and then last night that horrible fake smile, and the expressions, and also he kept looking to his left, as if someone was there prompting him.  Yes, he has more experience, but Nixon had more experience than Kennedy, and look what a disaster he turned out to be.  $5000.00 to buy your own health care.  Puhleeze!  When you are sick, you can barely get yourself to the doctor, let alone first have to find some plans, assess the pluses and minuses to see which covers and fits your situation, buy it, etc., etc., etc.  And $5000.00?  Has anyone checked the price of health coverage today?  What a sorry mess.  I am getting an absentee ballot, since I cannot guarantee being functional enough on the day to get to the polls, and I do want to vote.  It’s important that we do not keep the people who got us in this mess in office, and I also want to be part of history, electing the first black president.  Or African-American.  Or whatever the politically correct term is now.  I was not old enough to vote for Kennedy, and wouldn’t have if I was.  I don’t want to miss this opportunity to do the right thing.  Enough of the political rant for today.

It is a gray day.  Really autumnal.  Haven’t heard if we’re in for rain or not, but I like rain and always welcome it.  Hoping to get some more accomplished today.  Later.

>Gertrude?

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I did not sleep well last night, so I am very tired today. Not getting as much done as yesterday. Did have the visit from Mary Ellen this morning, folded some laundry, made my lunch, watched tv.

The problem is, I can’t find Gertrude. She usually comes out after she’s sure everyone but me is gone, and I have said ‘treats’ several times and shaken the bag, looked in all the cupboards and closets, under the bed, under the shelves, all the places she usually hides, and no Gertrude She has to be here somewhere, and there aren’t that many places to hide. I know she didn’t go out, because she has never gone out on her own, and will not even go near the door when anyone goes in or out. Gertrude, where are you? I guess I’ll have to wait until she gets hungry enough.

Mary Ellen asked about the cats and so I had to tell her about Simon, and now Gertrude has gone super-invisible as opposed to her normal invisible. Not my best day. But it’s gorgeous outside, so some compensation.

>Time for a Change

>Found a new site with backgrounds for Blogger, so time to update for autumn, my favorite season. Feeling kind of ‘time to change things again’ ish, and not just the blog. I really am hoping to have enough energy to move a few things around. My teeny tiny kitchen is just too cluttered, and I need to move my shelf back to the hall and make it be my pantry. There’s just not enough room for everything in the kitchen, and this way I can easily see what food I have on hand, too. I thought it would be better to have the heavy appliances, like the mixer, on the counter instead of the shelf, and that means the dry goods jars have to go elsewhere. Thus the shelf becoming the pantry. I just need the energy to move everything.

Gertrude is still the invisible cat, but not as much as she was. She actually walked right by Tess the other day on her way from one hiding place to another. First time ever. No one but me ever sees her unless the vacuum gets too close to her hiding place. Then you see a black streak heading to under the bed. She’s trying to be bolder with sitting on my lap, but is still holding back. She will sit between me and the chair arm, but not actually ON my lap. Poor baby. I don’t know how to untimidize her except by time and patience and just being as nice as I can to her. I try not to scare her, but sometimes I move too fast or laugh or something and off she goes. She’s never going to be like my Simon, but she is sort of good company, and no work to speak of. Empty the litter box, put out the food and water. That’s about all she requires.

My friend Tess has gone on vacation for two weeks, so I am going to be pretty all alone except for the two hours on Thursdays when my homemaker comes. I’m hoping to get up enough energy and gumption to actually go out and go somewhere, like the library, on my own. Lots of extra-strength Excedrin first, of course, or the legs will not cooperate.

But whatever else is going on, it’s autumn. I love autumn. And Chuck. And Life. Two shows that make me smile when they’re about to come on. Smiling is a good thing.

>Weather

>It’s definitely autumn.  The chill has arrived.  Today was cool, breezy, lots of sunshine, lovely.  Went out with my friend Tess to Walmart to stock up on some items, then back to her house to play with her dog.  Poor doggie has allergies and has been chewing on her feet, so vet prescribed a shot and Prednisone.  No, No, No.  This is not the same little doggie.  No playfulness, no energy, no nothing.  It’s very hard on Tess, and she feels responsible.  I blame the vet for prescribing such a heavy drug for a 14 pound dog with an annoying, not health-threatening condition.  Fortunately, Misty is only on this for a short time, so we’re hoping she bounces back to her old (bouncy) self.  Poor baby.  Poor Tess. 

I am doing pretty well.  The melatonin is helping, even if sporadically, and today I got my scrip for the Zanaflex which almost always works and works well.  So I have two options every day.  Sleep is good.  Not being able to get to sleep is not good.  Sleeping for twelve or more hours at a time is also not good.

I cooked yesterday.  Yes.  Me.  I cooked.  It was very stressful and tiring and painful, but except for that was an easy dish and came out really well.  Chicken breasts, artichoke hearts, potatoes, Parmesan.  Yum.  Happy Fall.