THIS ARTICLE IS FROM TUMBLR

Here’s the opposite story, though. With apologies because I don’t have the book in front of me, so I may get some details wrong, but I read this “Irena’s Children“ by Tilar J. Mazzeo.

Irena lived in Warsaw during the Nazi occupation, and dedicated her life to rescuing Jewish children from the Ghetto, and her story is complicated in a lot of ways but – well, this story isn’t actually about Irena, per se.

It’s about a bus driver.

It’s about a day when she’s traveling across town by bus with a very young Jewish child, and partway to their destination the child looks up and asks a question – in Yiddish. and the whole bus goes quiet, because everyone knows what that means. And Irena thinks, okay, we’re going to die here today.

And she’s running through her options – all of them bad – and suddenly the bus stops, and the bus driver announces that there’s been a mechanical failure and the bus needs to return to the depot immediately. Everyone off, please.

And she stands and goes to get off the bus and the driver says – not you two. Sit down. So she sits down as everyone else leaves, because, well, what else is she going to do? the options are all still bad, at this point.

and when the bus is empty the bus driver says,

“Where do you need to go?”

And then he drives them as close to their destination as he can, and lets them off, and drives away. And Irena lives, and the kid lives, and they never cross paths again.

So a janitor got three people killed, and a bus driver saved two lives – not to mention all the other lives indirectly saved because Irena was able to continue her work.

I think about that almost every day now, to be honest.

We can’t all be Irena. I couldn’t be Irena. She was in a unique place with very specific skills and connections that let her do what she did. I am just one mentally ill librarian. I can’t be her. But – I can be the bus driver. Or I could be the janitor. Because it doesn’t matter what your job is. It doesn’t matter who you are. In a world like this, every single one of us has the opportunity to do massive harm or massive good. We can save lives or end them.

And that’s scary. but it’s also very comforting? at least for me. Because at the end of the day it means this: no matter of how small and helpless and unimportant you feel, you’re never powerless in the face of great evil.

You can choose to be the bus driver.

THIS IS THE IMPORTANT PART, I THINK

We can’t all be Irena. I couldn’t be Irena. She was in a unique place with very specific skills and connections that let her do what she did. I am just one mentally ill librarian. I can’t be her. But – I can be the bus driver. Or I could be the janitor. Because it doesn’t matter what your job is. It doesn’t matter who you are. In a world like this, every single one of us has the opportunity to do massive harm or massive good. We can save lives or end them.

And that’s scary. but it’s also very comforting? at least for me. Because at the end of the day it means this: no matter of how small and helpless and unimportant you feel, you’re never powerless in the face of great evil.

YOU CAN CHOOSE TO BE THE BUS DRIVER

What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you want to make.

Jane Goodall

OCTOBER

My favorite month. I love the colors, the dry leaves to crunch through, the cool temps, the sky in the evening. Been a long day, so not a lot to say because I am just too tired to think, but happy October, everyone.

ANOTHER REASON THEY LOVE THE ORANGE DISGRACE

https://greattransformation.substack.com/p/the-mirror-we-deserve-what-the-ryder

He has given them permission to do these things and worse. To be the worst versions of themselves, and they seem to be reveling in it. I am truly ashamed of my fellow countrymen.

Good Article

https://www.theindex.media/p/donald-trump-can-t-make-cowards-of-us-all

Profit over integrity.

I LOVE THIS

It’s part of a longer quote, but this is my new favorite insult:

“You’re the reason shampoo bottles have instructions.”

I have been struggling with pain and fatigue like never before, but got a change in my meds and am slowly improving. Hoping to start blogging again soon. 🙂

HELP WITH RENT AND UTILITIES IN RHODE ISLAND

Found this elsewhere:

https://dhs.ri.gov/programs-and-services/energy-assistance-programs-heating/low-income-home-energy-assistance-program

JUST FYI

It keeps getting worse. Thank you, MAGA morons.

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/rcna227794

MY YEAR OF RAPID DECREPITIZING

Seriously, after having been in an ambulance twice in my life, and in hospital 4 times, two of them for childbirth, this year along I have been in an ambulance and in hospital four times. Four. February had the major bleed requiring transfusions, April had covid (no ambo, no hospital), June had TIA, and now, August, had two stays,one Tuesday for several hours, and again Wednesday for three days. Worse pain of my life. Actual screaming in ER. Tuesday was in agony for 4 or 5 hours til they tried Haldol, which eased the pain. Tried Taradol and Morphine to no results. So home I go, thinking it must be the PMR. Had x-ray and ultrasound with nothing showing in the shoulder. Wed night startup again 10:30 pm. Ambo, Er, several hours of agony, finally tried oxycotone (sp) which helped. MRI showed severe rotator cuff tear. Home Friday evening, much better, but being extremely cautious with arm movement, because barely enough oxy to last til I see the surgeon on the 22nd. Fun times, people. Fun times.

Actually, there was some fun. and not. The not is when a doctor told me she was getting me some pain meds and never returned, nor did anyone else with pain meds. Then same doctor asked me to stop screaming because I was scaring people. Seriously? That was the only bad parts, except for hours of the worst pain of my life. Thursday kitchen guy came to get my lunch order. I picked fish, mashed pots, and do I want gravy with that? Sure, might as well go all the way. He says, ‘When in Rome’, stopped briefly and started laughing. “Cracked myself up’, he says. We both were hysterical by then. Next day he comes back, asks me something, gets that look. I say, ‘You are going to start laughing again, aren’t you?’ and we both did. It was really funny. Then I had a lovely walk and funny chat with guy from rehab. So overall, except for that one doctor and the horrific pain, it was not a bad experience at all. We are lucky to have a really good hospital where I live. Also my Mass Health insurance co called me to check on how I am doing and see what I need. Really. I have Tufts and cannot be happier that I dropped that horrid United Health a while back.

Hot and muggy and ick, but the three weeks of workmen installing the new central air was so worth it. Nice in here. Enjoying my new Samsung tv. So much nicer than my old one. And bigger. And cheaper. Forgot the brand already, but starts with a V. Vizio,I think. My cognitive abilities have taken a real hit, I think (hope) down to the pain and stress. Wed before the pain reappeared, I was def having a traumatic experience reaction to the Tuesday pain. i would not even wish that kind of pain on the people/person I despise the most. The one I am thinking of particularly is orange, btw.

So being very, very tired, almost too tired to even read my Kindle, but I guess my body is doing some recovery from that experience. Fortunately, DD is here and taking excellent care of me. Putting on the lidocaine patches, making sure I take my meds, making sure I get my meals. Would not be able to survive without her help. She turned out really well, so I plan to keep her. 🙂 Later. Stay safe, emigrate if you can.

Here is baby rabbit outside the vet’s office in July.

TAXES

You resent paying to help other people. Your taxes paid for the food for starving children this administration withheld and then burned. Are you angry about that, as well, or not, because it was not YOUR children who were starving? Good Christian values here. Nope.

OH HAPPY DAY

My new kindle battery came yesterday, put it in the kindle just now, and it works. IT WORKS. Oh, happy happy happy happy day! Cannot tell you how much I have missed my kindle keyboard. This is my second one actually, the screen on the first one did weird stuff I do not know how to fix. This is what was on it when it died, and this is what is stlll on it now. I am so excited. Screw you, Amazon. With your shit Oasis and touch screens and Buy This Buy That crap. Oh happy day.

KIND OS SAD

When you think about it. Humans programming got messed up somewhere along the way, I think.

DEPRAVED INDIFFERENCE

The attitude of the Republicans who ALL voted to take away life-saving services from their constituents.

This one is all over the web:

‘…this act is likely to lead to deaths of people who have their Medicaid taken away. Sen. Joni Ernst of Iowa was told this at a town meeting and replied with sarcasm, saying “We all are going to die.”

The below is confirmed by SNOPES

STUFF. LOTS OF STUFF.

This is my new new favorite quote, from incrediberry on Instagram: If you call yourself ‘pro-life’, you should be helping people who are….alive.