WHAT NOW?

I have run a thousand comments on the murder in my head, but have not been able to just sit down and write them. There are posts on Tumblr complaining that it is only a big deal because it was a white woman. I disagree, and this is what I wanted to reply, but decided to put it here instead.

“I think it’s the video. Most people killed by ICE or law enforcement are not done so on video that the rest of us can watch and see the horror. It makes it much more real than just reading about it. To see a man, any man, murder another human being, regardless of gender or color or whatever, leaves a mark. Leaves you having to face what you have been reading about and pushing to the back of your mind because what can you do about it? This was truly the most frightening, horrific thing I have ever seen. It truly brings home the inhumanity of our elected leaders. How can you look at the video of a government employee murdering a human being in cold blood in broad daylight in front of witnesses and then see it immediately defended and approved of by your government leaders, and not be terrified? This is only my opinion, but the effect this incident has had on me is something I do not know how to live with.”

I grew up watching world war two movies on tv, and this is so reminiscent of what they portrayed, it is horrifying. Would you ever have thought that the USA, bastion of freedom, light of the world, would become a reincarnation of Nazi Germany? I guess we should have seen it coming. All the signs were there. Our country is systematically, deliberately being destroyed, and the worst part, the most frightening, horrific, unimaginable thing is how many of my fellow citizens are celebrating the fact, and dancing in celebration of murder and destruction of their neighbors. I don’t know how to deal with this.

We are hoping to get a two-bedroom apartment soon. Excitement of moving, maybe having a balcony, packing, preparing. None of it matters now. All we can think about is how our own government officials are defending and approving the cold-blooded, broad daylight murder of one of us. The one the video left no doubt about it being murder. Reading about it, and seeing it happen are not the same thing. It’s not about color, it’s about seeing it happen. It makes an impact that reading about it does not. I am scared. I really am. One of my children inherited the olive skin of her Italian father, and is always nervous about going out in fear of being targeted by ICE. In the United States of America. Land of the free. Home of the brave. All the shit we were spoon-fed our entire lives, all of which were lies. I have no idea what to do. None.

IDEK

She is turning away, not trying to run him over, and he shoots her dead because he can. This is the United States of America. Bastion of freedom. Light of the world. That is what we believed we were. This is what we are today, thank you MAGA voters and those who did not bother to vote at all.

CANNOT THINK OF THE WORD FOR THIS

it’s not analogy. Some days, my words are just not there. Pain and exhaustion really mess with your cognitive abilities. Anyway, I hope people who need to get this, get this.

FROM TUMBLR

“at this time of year you might be tempted to create new rules for yourself, if you do, make sure that they are designed to serve you, not to punish yourself for imperfection.”

ANOTHER FIND

“In a world where Google can bring you back 100,000 answers, a librarian can bring you back the right one.” Neil Gaiman

Too bad Neil turned out to be yet another shit human, there are just so many of us that are.

But I like the quote. And I do love libraries. At one time, I had library cards from three different towns, and used them regularly. Check yours out. (Little joke there). They have more than just books you can read for free, too.

FROM MY BLOG IN 2013

“If by a ‘Liberal’ they mean someone who looks ahead and not behind, someone who welcomes new ideas without rigid reactions, someone who cares about the welfare of the people-their health, their housing, their schools, their jobs, their civil rights and their civil liberties–someone who believes we can break through the stalemate and suspicions that grip us in our policies abroad, if that is what they mean by a ‘Liberal,’ then I’m proud to say I’m a ‘Liberal.’”

— John F. Kennedy

ANNOYED

And irritated. This irritates me. In my entire life, I have never, ever heard anyone refer to the week between Christmas and New Year’s as ‘Dead Week’.

“The days between Christmas and New Years are blissfully blurry. After yuletide stress dissipates, and before resolution anxiety seizes us, we find ourselves in a prolonged pajama-clad fugue. The Brits call it “Boxing Week,” while Americans call it “Dead Week.” In Norway, the land of my ancestors, it’s known as Romjul, a quiet, unstructured interlude for staying home with friends and family, free from outside demands.”

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Happy Holidays. Season’s Greetings. Whatever floats your boat. Hope you are all having a fantastic day.

From my neighbor’s door

A present from a friend came in this.

Downtown where I live.

From a few years ago. Before I got Miss G, aka El Destructo.

Love this.

And this. Do not know where this is, but it’s gorgeous.

SOMETHING WE NEED TO HEAR, I THINK

From: https://crimereads.com/wake-up-dead-man-knows-the-whodunnit-is-inherently-political-its-also-a-perfect-movie/

“….that regardless of all material or emotional trappings, the purpose of being human is to support one another. The purpose of being human is the same thing as the purpose of reaching out to God: to be a good person, and to do the right thing.”

It does seem like a lot of us are unaware of this, or don’t care. IDEK. Great movie, by the way.

DISAPPOINTED

in humanity more and more every day. It is killing me, I swear. Anyway, there have been a lot of videos recently of people cutting into a cake that looks exactly like a cat, in front of their cat, and the cats are absolutely terrorized. For humor and clicks. Terrorizing your pet. So here’s a clip from a compilation that involves dogs as well. Made me happy, because I am apparently a very vindictive person. It’s on Pinterest under ‘This cake prank is so funny’. NOT funny at all. Humans are just so cruel.

ROB REINER

Obviously, I did not know the man or his wife, but everything I’ve read speaks to them being good human beings. I just keep thinking how horrible it must be to be murdered by your own child. You spend your life loving and caring for them, and then this happens. It is so very, very sad. I have know people in my own life who were injured and terrorized by their child. It is just so heart-breaking.

WOW

Was reading this:

And came across this:

“After the Grinch steals everything from their homes, he stands atop a mountain so that he can hear, and rejoice in, their despair—so he can experience and enjoy a community weakened and reeling from his cruel intervention.”

Does this sound like any particular group we know today? Need I say who?

IDEK

Reading a post on Tumblr that talks about transfem blogs being banned. I was thinking about things yesterday, not transfem blogs, but life in general, and it seems to me that everything is ruined or in the process of being ruined. Every bit of progress we have made, every good thing that has been implemented, it is all being ruined by the greedy elite fuckers that are Trump and his cronies. You know who they are. Even people who do not support the orange Nazi give in to him to stop losing profit. Because greed is everything in this country, and I think that religion is spreading throughout the world. Sad Jean is just overwhelmed by all this.

MY NEW FAVORITE QUOTE

‘What’s a woman again?’ “That’s quite easy. It’s someone who covers their drink when you walk into the room.” tattoodave1608 on Instagram

And a bit more about the boycott.