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About excentric

I love sci-fi, music, reading, gardening. I am ill, but I am not my illness. Life is good. BTW, have I mentioned that I am a fan girl. Because I Am A FanGirl. Torchwood!

FROM MY POLITICAL FOLDER

The second one is actually good things. There still are good things and good people. Don’t lose hope. Hard, I know, but we will win. WE WILL WIN.

CAPE COD CHIPS

Campbell’s is closing the Hyannis operation. I love Cape Cod Chips. Anyway, here is what Campbell’s says, which I firmly believe is the usual stuff corporations put out when the do these things:

“This difficult decision reflects a careful assessment of our business needs to strengthen our operations and position our Snacks business for long-term growth,”

I think this is corpspeak for “More money. We need to make more money, regardless of the cost to our employees or anyone who is not us.”

I am so over capitalism.

MORE FROM OUT THERE

Never sure about posting these, but it seems to be important to share info about the horrors we are being subjected to, with the occasional bit of good news that actually happens as well. So here:

BETRAYAL

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/seven-democrats-just-voted-to-approve-ice-funding-full-list/ar-AA1ULAn7

Betrayal for those who are suppose to be the good guys. There are no good guys anymore, it seems.

SOMETHING LIGHT

Cause I need it. My favorite fan fiction title ever: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5684145/1/Veni-Vidi-Velcro-I-came-I-saw-I-stuck-around

WOW! JUST WOW!

https://www.unchartedblue.com/davos-is-in-crisis-as-u-s-leaders-indicate-they-wont-be-reining-trump-in/

We took ourselves for granted for far too long. We fell into complacency. “Why vote? They’re all the same.” Maybe they were, to a certain extent, but we could have picked better over all. Now we have lost it all. My country no longer exists, and yet, there are still people out there thinking this orange traitor is the best thing ever. There is no going back now. How do you fix the complete destruction of everything. The betrayal by our elected officials, those we ‘chose’ to represent OUR best interests, who wound up only caring about their own. The complete giving over to greed and profit and power being all that matters. Shakespeare said it best: “The bright day is done, and we are for the dark.” We are for the dark, people. We are done.

This should have told you something. Maybe it did. And you chose it. Now you have to live with it. For shame.

NICE SURPRISE

I have been in a lot of pain and taking serious pain meds twice daily. Asked my doctor for a refill. Okay. Wants me to come in for an assessment. But today I had a call from a pain management center to make an appointment. Unbeknownst to me, my lovely, lovely doctor made a referral. Seriously, she is the best doctor I have ever had in my entire life of doctor after doctor after doctor. So happy Jean is happy.

She (Jean) is also NOT checking social media too much, and does not have regular tv so no news. NOT being steeped in the horror every day makes a difference. I can’t change anything, the most I can do is sign petitions, so constantly exposing myself to the debacle that is happening is not very healthy. Not that I don’t care. Not that at all. But it is very upsetting and usually the second thing (after OW) that is in my head as soon as I wake up. Remembering the murder and the horrors that happened and are still happening afterwards. And realizing that it was not the first murder, but the others were not white women and there was no video, so the coverage was much less. My country is gone. It is very sad and unbelievably disturbing. Our men and women fought and died to end this, and then their descendants turned around and voted FOR it. It is appalling.

On another note, we are in for a real snow storm, it seems. 12 to 18 inches. Woo Hoo. I am hoping we are prepared. Getting some bottled water just in case, but we have (I hope) enough food that does not need cooking to get by for a few days if the power goes out. My power almost never goes out,so not really worried, but better prepared than not. I live sort of between the fire department and the police department, and my friend thinks maybe I am on the same grid they are. I live on a corner, and the fire dept is short way down one street and the police department is around the corner a ways down that street. Neat. Unneat is the sirens always seem to go right under my windows and they can be very loud. And weird. They have some new ones I have never heard before that are like a bubble of sound or something. Weird, weird, weird.

Anyway, it’s sunny and not too cold today, and I have just taken my morning pain med. Twelve and twelve, so hopefully not in too much pain when I wake up, usually around ten am. Almost daily, as soon as I wake I am ‘OW’. Fun times. Not.

Hope everyone out there is safe and well and ready for the storms, which seem to be in a very large area of the country. Watch your backs, too. Wear your masks as the flu and covid are getting bad. Just be safe, everyone. You matter.

WINTER

Saw my doctor yesterday. Have not been out of the apartment in over a month, and it was a great day for it. Snow lingering on branches, covering the ugliness that happens sometimes with trash or whatever, making everything look shiny and beautiful. I like winter, says I to DD. NO, NO, NO, says she. So it got me thinking that yes, winter is inconvenient, but if you only focus on the inconveniences, you miss so much that is good and lovely about the season. Besides, I freaking love snow.

Also, very disappointed in my town’s snow removal. My friends husband used to work for the Highway Department and he always did a great job clearing the sidewalks. Then he retired. Since then, it has been hit or miss, mostly miss. They completely disregard the fact that people parked on the street need to be able to get into and out of their cars. Plan to complain about this, too. It has been much worse than this in past years, too. Small hills of ice to try to climb over without breaking something. For shame, Highway Department.

Was very happy to see protesters (not many, but still..) on street corners in the next town over with ‘We Brought Whistles, They Brought Guns’, and other signs. Many thumbs up. If I could, I would be out there with them.

From the storm two days ago:

MY NEW FAVORITE QUOTE

This was on Vivaldi Social, and I hope it’s okay to repeat it here. If it’s not, please let me know and I will delete this. Anyway:

“we all need a little less raging against the dying of the light and a little more coordinated tactical assault on the darkness factory”

LIFE. IT’S HARD

If you are not horrified, appalled, frightened out of you wits, what is wrong with you. So many people are defending ICE. Just obey and they won’t kill you. Wow. Something is seriously wrong here people. Having a very hard time with it. Very hard time. Some more from out there:

SOMETHING FROM INSTAGRAM

I don’t know how to show posts from Instagram anywhere else, but regarding the murder there is a post from yesterday by

cohen.489

that is very relevant. Watch it if you can.

WHAT NOW?

I have run a thousand comments on the murder in my head, but have not been able to just sit down and write them. There are posts on Tumblr complaining that it is only a big deal because it was a white woman. I disagree, and this is what I wanted to reply, but decided to put it here instead.

“I think it’s the video. Most people killed by ICE or law enforcement are not done so on video that the rest of us can watch and see the horror. It makes it much more real than just reading about it. To see a man, any man, murder another human being, regardless of gender or color or whatever, leaves a mark. Leaves you having to face what you have been reading about and pushing to the back of your mind because what can you do about it? This was truly the most frightening, horrific thing I have ever seen. It truly brings home the inhumanity of our elected leaders. How can you look at the video of a government employee murdering a human being in cold blood in broad daylight in front of witnesses and then see it immediately defended and approved of by your government leaders, and not be terrified? This is only my opinion, but the effect this incident has had on me is something I do not know how to live with.”

I grew up watching world war two movies on tv, and this is so reminiscent of what they portrayed, it is horrifying. Would you ever have thought that the USA, bastion of freedom, light of the world, would become a reincarnation of Nazi Germany? I guess we should have seen it coming. All the signs were there. Our country is systematically, deliberately being destroyed, and the worst part, the most frightening, horrific, unimaginable thing is how many of my fellow citizens are celebrating the fact, and dancing in celebration of murder and destruction of their neighbors. I don’t know how to deal with this.

We are hoping to get a two-bedroom apartment soon. Excitement of moving, maybe having a balcony, packing, preparing. None of it matters now. All we can think about is how our own government officials are defending and approving the cold-blooded, broad daylight murder of one of us. The one the video left no doubt about it being murder. Reading about it, and seeing it happen are not the same thing. It’s not about color, it’s about seeing it happen. It makes an impact that reading about it does not. I am scared. I really am. One of my children inherited the olive skin of her Italian father, and is always nervous about going out in fear of being targeted by ICE. In the United States of America. Land of the free. Home of the brave. All the shit we were spoon-fed our entire lives, all of which were lies. I have no idea what to do. None.

IDEK

She is turning away, not trying to run him over, and he shoots her dead because he can. This is the United States of America. Bastion of freedom. Light of the world. That is what we believed we were. This is what we are today, thank you MAGA voters and those who did not bother to vote at all.

CANNOT THINK OF THE WORD FOR THIS

it’s not analogy. Some days, my words are just not there. Pain and exhaustion really mess with your cognitive abilities. Anyway, I hope people who need to get this, get this.