Am getting kind of manic, so called pharmacist who said stop taking Trazodone because it’s working exactly the opposite to how it should. So have to call doctor tomorrow to discuss alternatives. It was fun while it lasted, though. LOL

It is a stunningly gorgeous day. Mid fifties, windy, sunny blue sky
with clouds floating here and there. I am energized and have loads of mental energy, a rarity with fibro. If this is what Trazodone does, why didn’t anyone give it to me before now? If feels so great to be able to Get Things Done. Yes!

Now, for the bad news. My homemaker, my Traci, is leaving. Two more visits and done. On the bright side, for her anyway, she got a much better job with benefits and vacation and sick and personal days, so I am very happy for her. Not so happy for me. She’s been my homemaker for eight years. Eight. I think that’s a record in the ‘lasting in a shit job’ category. Cleaning other people’s toilets, doing other people’s laundry, all for barely above minimum wage pay with NO benefits and no pay for mileage or travel time. I hope we’ll be able to keep up the friendship part, but it’s never the same to come back to a place that used to be a job, as anything other than a worker. Like a friend.

You have to adapt. Part of zen is learning that it’s the wanting things to stay the same that causes suffering, because life is change, and if you can’t adapt and come to terms with that, you are screwed. I choose happy, so adapting is something I work on. Ah, well. My Traci:

Found this on Spoon Shortage Sue Facebook page. It pretty much sums up my philosophy of life:

Then there’s this one, that just made me laugh, because it’s so apt:

Been getting things done, in spite of pain. I seem to have loads of energy, relatively speaking. Last night, I was tired from not sleeping much lately. Fell asleep at 1am, awake sometime after 2am, read, got up, cleared off and rearranged desk and side table that is part of my office setup, cleaned out and rearranged the middle desk drawer, cleaned out my basket of rocks, shells, and teeny ceramic animals. Tired again, by 6am, slept til alarm went off at 11am. So happy I thought to reset it, or I would probably have still been sleeping when my homemaker came at 1pm. Never a dull moment around here. LOL