>It’s a rainy, windy day, and the temp has risen one degree since last night. It’s 61 degrees Fahrenheit. Blanket, sweater, long sleeves. North wind blowing the curtains and pushing the rain against the window. Oh, yeah. This makes me very happy.

Now for a real post, not one with videos or memes. *smile*

I am troubled. I am still circling the drain here. But it’s like there are two of me. One is the happy, ready for fun, laughing at The Glades me. The one who is happy. Then there is the other me. The one who is circling the black hole. The one who wakes up sad and in pain and who feels like crying all the time. I don’t know how I got here. This is what bothers me. There’s no reason for this, I can’t seem to shake it…it’s always there underneath everything…I keep getting tiny flashback memories where I’m there in the moment and I respond out loud. “I didn’t mean…, Why did you…” then in mid sentence I realize I’m having a non-existent conversation with no one. I talk to myself all the time anyway, but this is different. I am talking to someone who is only there in my head, as if I’m there in that moment. It’s kind of worrying. Okay. Now that I’ve put it out there, I feel better. We’ll see how long that lasts.

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Found this on an old post on a blog I’m reading. Of course I changed the answers to my own. Duh!

.1. Do you like bleu cheese?
Yep..

2. Have you ever shot up heroin?
No way.

3. Do you own a gun?
No

4. Are you single or taken?
Single

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Yep.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
I like them, but I only eat ones made of turkey.

7. Favorite Christmas song?
God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee

9. Can you do push ups?
Noooooo.

10. Have you ever done drugs?
Pot.

11. Favorite hobby?
Feeding my Torchwood fan fiction addiction.

12. Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?
Remember, their brains really do work differently than ours.

13. Do you have A.D.D?,
No.

14. What is the best part about the weekend?
Nothing. My weekends are pretty much the same as my weeks.

15. Middle Name?
Jean

16. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
Shit. Fuck. Damn. Sorry, that’s what popped into my head.

17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
Didn’t buy any thing yesterday.

18. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink
Coffee, decaf coffee, water.

19. Current wonder right now?
I wonder how long this gorgeous cool rainy weather will last. Well, not really. I just enjoy it while it’s here. Don’t think ahead, it’s bad for you.

20. Current hate right now?
Stupidity of people who should know better. Otherwise known as right-wing bigots.

21. Favorite place to be?
Seashore

22. How did you bring in the New Year?
Reading

23.Where would you like to go?
Great Britain, Europe, South Korea.

24. Name three people who will complete this..
Me, myself, and I.

25. Do you own slippers?
Yep.

26. What shirt are you wearing?
Red pullover.

27. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
Not so much.

28. Can you whistle?
Sure can.

29. Favorite color?
Yellow

30. Would you be a pirate?
Sure, if it was like an Errol Flynn movie.

31. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Dead Summer

32. Favorite girl’s name?
Don’t have one.

33. Favorite boy’s name?
Also don’t have one.

34. Whats in your pocket right now?
Everything I need to get me through the day. Money, keys, phone numbers, small notebook and pen, credit and shopping cards.

35. Last thing that made you laugh?
Probably Lolcats

36. Have you shaved today?
No

37. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
Pulled something in my back and was in agony for awhile.

38. Do you love where you live?
The region, the town, yes. My apartment, not so much. I miss having an outdoors of my own. I miss my garden.

39. How many TVs do you have in your house?
One

40. Who is your loudest friend?
Peter

41. How many dogs do you have?
None. I have a cat.

42. Does someone have a crush on you?
I seriously doubt it.

43. What is your favorite movie?
Benny and Joon.

44. What brand of shoes are you wearing?
I’m wearing socks, not shoes.

45. Whos the last person to text you?
My youngest daughter.

46. What song(s) do you want played at your funeral?
I’m not having a funeral.

47. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Reading fan fiction, of course.

48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Oh, crap. I’m awake. I might as well get up.

49. Where did if go?
I can’t remember. If I do, I’ll let you know.

50. When is your birthday?
Springtime.