Oh,well.

I am not doing as well as I was, thanks to my doctor messing with my meds.  I have been pretty depressed lately because of it, and yesterday I was feeling very stressed and on the verge of an anxiety attack. Haven’t had one in quite a long time.
So.today I am trying to rally and work at being “normal”.  Ha!  I dropped crumbled bacon bits on the floor right off (very bad if cat eats pork). Made a mess trying to cook a pancake, because I don’t do mornings, and there’s the reason for that.  I usually have coffee for breakfast, and even that rarely goes well.  Messes R Us.

Took a break decide to attempt crocheting something.  I used to make a lot of crocheted items.  Had to cut off my tangle of yarn twice, but opted not to try again after the second time.  Another break, decided to cook something that has been needing it for a bit.  Trying cheese danish with crescent rolls.  Didn’t do too bad, only small mess, but they are baking, so the verdict is not in yet.  Also steamed broccoli that was getting past its goodness date, forgot to lower heat, black pan and semi-blackened broccoli.  Haven’t started to grate the cheese yet.  Probably a bad idea anyway.  Feeling very useless, worthless and frustrated, and if I cried, I’d be doing it now.  Oh, well.  Back to the kitchen.  Don’t seem to have any kind of future, so no going back to it.

2 thoughts on “Oh,well.

  1. Messes beget more messes, that’s my experience, so don’t fret too much about them. I stepped in the cat’s water bowl this morning and then found a cat vomit with my foot five minutes later. Nice start to the day! Have done the charred vegetables too many times to remember, usually the smoke alarm will go off while I’m happily pottering away somewhere else. I hope the baking turned out ok 🙂
    PS how did you do the snowflakes? Not that it’s snowing here, it’s summer, supposedly – forecast for today is thunderstorms and hail.

  2. Snowflakes: http://en.blog.wordpress.com/2013/12/02/holiday-snow-transformation/

    Baking was very simple and turned out really well, surprise, surprise. LOL Even the broccoli salad is mostly edible. 🙂

    It’s not the messes that are getting to me, I am well-noted for not being able to do anything without making a mess, it’s the conglomeration of all things crappy that is doing in my brain. I can deal with the pain if it’s not too horrific, or with being too tired to function, or with just having a non-working brain leading to forgetfulness and clumsiness and all, but when they all are going on at the same time, it gets really, really wearing. I was doing better. Going backwards is hard and makes it all seem that much worse. Maybe it’s like having a bad case of flu that goes on forever, then finally getting better, then getting the flu all over again before you’ve even completely gotten over the first time. Or not. In my case, I have come to accept that I am never going to ‘normal’ again, and being better is like being really, really ill when I WAS normal. By comparison. Everything is relative, so they say. LOL

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