Seems like an oxymoron, doesn’t it? Not just a day for beer and barbecues.

On the homefront, my new homemaker did not show Friday, did not show again today, although I really wasn’t expecting her today. Traci worked most holidays, only because some of her clients were Personal Care, and you kind of have to show up for that. So I’ve been alone for five days now, and it is starting to show. How did I do this all those years without going stark raving mad? Or maybe I did, and just no one noticed, including me. Haven’t gone out because was having a lot of pain, and then the more I am alone, the harder it is to motivate myself to go out, reach out, whatever. It sucks. I need to figure out how to work this so I don’t get back to the miserableness I had been in for so long. Join something? Something that you can just not show up for when having a bad day. Does anything like that exist? Miss my Traci. Miss her showing up when I expected her to, and just miss her in general, although we have been texting a bit, and I hope to see her on the weekend. Okay, done whining…for now.