it feels like I am a voice in the wilderness, shouting out my frustration when there is no one to hear, or if there is, no one actually listens. Everyday I read about the stupid things our elected officials say and do, and acknowledge yet again that people actually vote them into office repeatedly, and then today, I realized. I don’t care. If people are that stupid, they deserve what they get, and I am done fighting. For now, anyway. I am having a miserable week and am more than usually grumpy because of it, and just plain fed up with it all. Just everyone with bad news leave me alone. There is good news out there, I need to look for it instead. I can’t fix anything, and it eats away at me, and that makes me just as stupid. Right?

I want to feel good. I want to be ‘normal’. I want to be able to do what needs to be done when it needs doing, not months later. I want to be able to go outside. I want to have fun. I want to stop whining about things. I want the pain to go away and stay away. Who out there has that elusive magic wand that will fix everything? Anyone?

I will work on being more cheerful. Really, I will.