Yes or No?

Came across this today:

http://en.blog.wordpress.com/2014/01/17/mental-health-roundup/

about mental health bloggers. I am not one. I am a ‘random ramblings but occasionally about the chronic debilitating illness I have’ blogger. Definitely not a grammar police blogger, either, obviously. I generally try to keep the mental health part out, because friends and family read my blog, and I don’t want them to worry, or for me to seem like the broken, needy one here. But in reality, I kind of am the broken, needy one. My life involves just getting through today, every single day. Struggling to face another day of pain, of fatigue, of not being able to do what I want, go where I want, cook what I want, do pretty much anything that I want. I can’t even control when I sleep. I always, always feel as though I am just hanging on by my fingernails, and it will only take a very small push to send me over the edge. I have run out of coping resources. Actually, I ran out of them a long time ago, and have been running on fumes ever since, so to speak. So my point here is, would it help if I blogged more about that aspect of illness, or is keeping it light the way to go. As light as I can, anyway. I don’t want to be a downer for anyone else, ever. I work really hard to keep a good attitude, and make light even to myself of what each day involves. Chronic, debilitating illness, however fun it is to say, is extremely frustrating and wearing and depressing, and frightening–let’s not forget scary, especially when you live alone like I do, but I am not my illness and so I fight as much as I can not to give in to those emotions. I want to be the person I am inside, not the person illness has created of the physical me, but if it helps someone else for me to go there in my blog, I would at least think about it. Anyone who isn’t related to me have any thoughts on this? Or not. Whatever. I’m good either way.

2 thoughts on “Yes or No?

  1. It’s a tough one. Why not try it, see if it helps you, see what reactions you get from other bloggers and your family? My health problems aren’t anywhere near as severe as yours. I find a good rant occasionally does help me, I don’t know why, but somehow I feel like I’ve got my own back on “it”! Because you’re right, an illness is not us, no matter how much it affects our daily life. We’re still the same person, just with a lot of S**T happening.

  2. Hi. A tough one indeed. I think it all depends on whether you feel going into the mental health aspect would help you more as well as your readers. I have no idea what a chronic debilitating illness does day to day like you do, but I do know that reading about your small steps in coping with the physical side of things gives me a reason to try to be always positive whenever negativity hits. But like you say, you have considerations such as family and if it puts your mind at ease when they are at ease then maybe rocking the boat(as far as they are concerned) is not the way to go. After all, their well being affects yours.

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