>Added a ‘make your own mad-lib’ in the sidebar.
Had a good day yesterday, in spite of being tired, unfocused, and pained. Put away some clean laundry, cleaned the kitchen, helped homemaker put together side bookcase for my new fireplace with the fake fire. It’s pretty. Did some other things, too, but I’ve forgotten already. LOL
It’s a warm and sticky day, but I have the fan on so will leave off the a/c. Too many days have needed it this summer, and I really like having the windows open.
I’ve noticed that I have the underlying depression going on. Every so often, I just feel like crying, even though I don’t cry…almost ever. I feel like life is passing me by. Summer is almost gone, and I’ve been outside only a few days altogether. I know I have control over whether or not I go out, but I always always talk myself out of it. I don’t feel comfortable being out in public by myself, and I have no private outdoors where I live. Even a little balcony with a chair would be great, but I’d have to move, and I’m not sure I’m up for that right now. Woe is me, kinda sorta. But not really. I have a very good life, and I am mostly happy and cheerful. The depression is just there, underneath it all, waiting to pounce and send me spiraling into that black hole again, and that’s a place I NEVER want to go again. Once was terrifying and horrible enough for a lifetime.
Something I’ve noticed about having a blog that people I actually know read…it sort of makes you careful what you say. I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me, or fix me, or anything. I just need to say things sometimes, and anonymously is good. Then you tell your friends about your blog, they read it, and hmmmmm. Know what I mean, readers? I hate being the ‘needy’ friend, so I try to balance things, I guess. Anyone have any opinions about this? Readers?? I know you’re out there, I see the visitor count. Second opinions and other perspectives are always welcome here.