>So I slept through most of it. Finally got up at 4pm, when my body decided pain was all done. Still felt fatigued and wonky, though. Took two Excedrin so now it’s almost midnight and I expect to be awake all night.
Watched the season final eps of Burn Notice and Royal Pains. Not my fav shows, but something to watch that’s not reality or total and complete drek. I am watching Earth2 on Netflix. Have seen some of it before, but not all. Yesterday I watched “The Boy in The Striped Pajamas”. Very good movie, well done, but very upsetting, too. At the end I was swearing at the father. People never cease to amaze me either by their kindness or their complete and utter inhumanity. It scares me to think that the inhumanly behaving ones are people just like me.
I wish I knew how to get this illness, and by extension, my life, under control. You can’t really have control over life, I know that, but I feel so completely out of control because of the sleep issues and really all of the illness issues. Like my life is at the whim of some thing I have no knowledge of. I want to sleep at night and be functional during the day, but my body seems to work the other way round. I want to be more like a regular person, if there is such a thing. I want to go where I want, when I want, and not be at the mercy of random pain and fatigue. Or maybe I just want to whine about it. Who knows? Who cares, really? Bah! Humbug!