>Something has changed

Not sure what, exactly, but I have been more depressed lately, feeling sad a lot. Maybe it’s realizing that I may never find out what happened to my brother, that most of my family is missing or dead, just being alone a lot again lately, more pain, nothing on tv, any reason I can think of. I just feel sad a lot. Maybe I’m frightened. I seem to be losing more mobility as time goes on. It’s getting harder to do the things I want/need to do. Maybe I’ve been better for so long that I’ve forgotten that sometimes life is like this with illness. I don’t know. I just want to feel better, physically and emotionally. I want to not be in pain all the time. I want my garden back, my life back. I guess I just want to feel sorry for myself today. So I am. I’ll be better tomorrow.

6 thoughts on “>Something has changed

  1. >I call this type of day a "pity party." We are entitled! Like you said, you will be better tomorrow. If you are like me, the FM is still making itself known, but I'm not as sad. It's like we get past it and realize we understand it better. If you can't get passed it, see your doctor. Talking about your sadness is theraputic isn't it? I have a blog and I have found it is nice to write about my day. Check it out when you have time: debsfibromyalgiablog.blogspot.comI hope you have a good nite's sleep and wake feeling better. Gentle Hugs, Deb

  2. >Thanks for the encouragement. I am usually pretty well able to cope, but now and then things get me down. It does help to talk/write, I agree. Knowing your not alone in this makes a huge difference, too, so thanks for commenting. Oh, I usually do a google image search if I'm looking for something particular like the one here, but I have tons of things saved from the almost ten years I've been online. I'm a saver in the cyber-world. LOL Going to check out your blog now.

  3. >In addition, it hasn't really been a very sunny summer. Maybe that's contributing?Love you,#2PS…I tried to comment with my livejournal id so you wouldn't have to guess who it was, and it errored out. grrr.

  4. >LOL Love you, too, #2. I have a lot of trouble with replying to comments on this blog, so I am using it on Safari instead of Firefox. It works better, mostly. yomama

  5. >Deb, don't know if you will see this, but cannot find a way to contact you. After you commented here, I commented on your blog twice, but neither showed up. Just so you know I wasn't ignoring your comment.

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